♥メロディブライアン愛.

refresh. restart. renew.

2012-01-19T11:55:00.000+08:00

‎forbidden makes it unspeakably desirable.

forbidden.

2011-12-27T14:45:00.002+08:00

‎'there is a charm about the forbidden that makes it unspeakably desirable.'

rolling in the deep.

2011-10-31T11:59:00.000+08:00

The scars of your love remind me of us
They keep me thinking that we almost had it all
The scars of your love, they leave me breathless
I can't help feeling,

We could have had it all.

"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead."

2011-10-17T11:29:00.001+08:00

"Nothing compares
No worries or cares
Regrets and mistakes
They are memories made.
Who would have known how bittersweet this would taste?"

"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead."

: Adele - Someone Like You.

what happen to us.

2011-10-11T14:58:00.000+08:00

what happen to us.
what happen to us.
WHAT HAPPEN TO US!

i'm confused. and scared.
why.
i just want it back to how it was.
even if i couldnt at least i wanna try.
looking back at the happy times. i know we can do it.
this mean so much to me.
YOU mean so much to me.

is it so hard.
what should i do now.
what is he doing.

i really wanna know.
but can i?

when will the day come.

2011-10-07T14:02:00.001+08:00

sitting here at tully's during lunch with my colleuage and talking about each other's life.
It suddenly hit on me and set me thinking.

'when will my life be back to how it was before again. why can't I just have a normal simple marriage life.'

what's wrong with my life now.
I know I don't have e call on how things is gg to turn out to be like.

when will e day comes when I can lead my life with you just like before.

I really miss those days.
I really miss you.

for better or worst.

2011-10-03T13:25:00.001+08:00

siggghhhhhh hardcore.
whywhywhywhywhy.
omgomgomgomgomg.

seriously, just stab me please cos i just hate this feeling so much so.

whatever happens before i really cant undo or change it. all i can do is to tell you that im really sorry and it wasnt intentional plus there wasnt ANY intention of interest at all. andyou are right, why will i be interested in this that guy when i know he is a bastard. hence, i did not contact him after that msg.

i have been putting in efforts, trying very hard cos i just want this to work out and i know you too have been putting in efforts this past weeks to accomodate.
so why cant we just continue this and make it work out since its already gg out so well.

the msg was more then a month ago and i could hardly even rmb the content cos its just not impt at all. thats not the point i know. but its really not significate.

what important most now is the present and the future.
the plannings that we have.
the house.
the hk trip.
the japan trip next year.

im really happy for the past weeks tho i have to put up and put in so much, but i'm more den willing and happy to do that.

and reason and fact is just being so simple,
its that.. i love you and you are my husband.

i know you are still pissed at this moment and it hurts me so much to see this. i think prolly i should just leave you alone to cool down first. but i hope you can just see this issue as the past and move towards the future with me.

everything i do, i do it for you.

F1

2011-09-25T23:53:00.001+08:00

sometimes.

2011-09-20T14:12:00.001+08:00

You tell me you're in love with me
Like you can't take your pretty eyes away from me
It's not that I don't want to stay
But every time you come too close I move away
I wanna believe in everything that you say
'Cause it sounds so good
But if you really want me, move slow
There's things about me you just have to know
Sometimes I run
Sometimes I hide
Sometimes I'm scared of you
But all I really want is to hold you tight
Treat you right
Be with you day and night
Baby all I need is time
I don't wanna be so shy
Every time that I'm alone I wonder why
Hope that you will wait for me
You'll see that you're the only one for me
I wanna believe in everything that you say
'Cause it sounds so good
But if you really want me, move slow
There's things about me you just have to know
Sometimes I run
Sometimes I hide
Sometimes I'm scared of you
But all I really want is to hold you tight
Treat you righ
Be with you day and night
Baby all I need is time
Just hang around and you'll see
There's nowhere I'd rather be
If you love me, trust in me
The way that I trust in you
Sometimes I run
Sometimes I hide
Sometimes I'm scared of you
But all I really want is to hold you tight
Treat you right
Be with you day and night
Baby all I need is time

final episode.

2011-09-15T15:23:00.000+08:00

finally.
i hope this episode has come to an end.

pros and cons.
and indeed.
i will miss you definately.

thanks to all my girls.
*jo, pris, ning, shan, bee*
you all have been the greatest beside me all these while.
the support and the listening ears.
i appreciate very much.
thank you.

i'm sorry baby.

2011-08-10T14:06:00.001+08:00

i know i made a mistake and its my fault.
i am to blame.
i tried making it up and salvage it.
i know action means more then words.
i know that you are damn pissed and angry now.

i am sorry i really am.
and after what happen, i am very clear and sure whats wrong now.
i dunno what got into me and yes its very stupid for me to do those stuff.
i realise my mistake and am willing to make it up.

i dun wan things to end this way.
i am sad, hurt from the words you used on me.
but i know those are just angry words and i am willing to take it all in.

i just want you.
and only you.

sorry baby, its my mistake.
and i wont repeat it ever.

i love you and you know that i really do.

RO.m peekures.

2011-06-15T14:27:00.000+08:00

finally got my awesomely ROM-ed peekures!

these are just some of the fab peekures i got from my photographer's fb :)

think i will only rec'd my DVD tomorrow! heh

am so happy when i see the photos. pretty aint they. and the photographer was really professional too!

all thanks to LiveMoments Photograpghy - AL TAN. really had a great and wonderful time with him. tho the weather that day was like @#*&^%# HOT under the sun, he still went outdoor with us and took all the great and beautiful shots! indeed its all about professionalism :)

mmkay.

now i got to settle for my pre-wedding shoots. tot of either gg to seletar bridal or just rent our own gown, get our own MUA and photograpgher. but of cos the second option will cost slightly more and really have to be engaging in all the correspondense and stuff while the first one is like you just have to pay the money and they do everything for you.

reason why we tot of not gg to a bridal studio is that:

firstly, we dont know who is te photographer and hence we wont know if his skill is good or not. and if it is not den all the photos wont be of our liking.

secondly, say if the photographer is good, den of cos we will have to buy our photos which cost ard $80 per piece!

$80 for 1 photo. thats alot. and i got friends who actually took extra photos costing up to a few thousands. so i tot of it and felt that its not really worth it. plus they dont give u all the extra shoot you din choose to print.

while on the other hand, if we get our own photogragher, we can have ALL out photos edited and given to us in DVD format :) its just that we wont have an ablum but we can always do it outselves as there are so many photoshops outside that does hardcovered ablum.

well, this is one of our concern. but not saying that taking bridal studio is not good. i will actually prefer taking bridal cos everything will be arranged for you and stuff so you dont have to source for this and that.

mm. guess there is pros and cons for both ways. gosh, why does it have to be soooo difficult.

and at the same time now i am actually sourcing for wedding hotel ballroom too!

FIRST CHOICE IS RAFFLES HOTEL and tmd. it will be under renov on that period where i planned! :( superbly sadded to the max. all along i always wanted raffles. love the place. love the settings. love everything there. and seriously i dont have a second option in mind.

now i want fullerton bay hotel. they dont have a ballroom.

think prolly i will just settle for fullerton.

well. for now, its all about the house now! :)

XOXO. with love always.

baby wolfy :)

2011-06-07T15:12:00.000+08:00

my new babylove :)

wolfy狼仔

waiting.

2011-05-27T10:17:00.000+08:00

hello.
i am bored of waiting.
waiting for my renov loan.
waiting for my ID to give me the 3D drawings.
waiting for my new house.
waiting to buy new shoes.
waiting to finish work today at 5pm.
waiting to get rich.
waiting to play mahjong.
waiting to waiting.

i am so sian.
tummy is bloated.
mens is coming.
omg.

okay bye.

awesomely ROM-ed :)

2011-05-19T16:01:00.000+08:00

awesomely ROM-ed yay :)

it was a pretty good day. tho the sun was still as hot as ever. but it was good as in comparing to e previous two days. okay least its not raining heh.

woke up at 8:30am.
showered and my MUA arrived at 9am. so i did my make up and hair for like 1.5 hours and had my breakfast.
was happy with the make up and hairdo tho. love the tiara :)
reached seletar country club at 11:30am
some of my mom's friends were already there.
everything was a rush and i have to keep running here and there to take photos.
like a star *winks* heh

started the ceremony at 12pm :)
'i do i do'
and yay! ceremony over, everyone busy having lunch there.
and i only tried the mushroom soup. but it was gooood!

went to take photoshoot outside at the lobby with the cars and stuff.
never tot that taking photos can be that tiring.
and after all, its a fun experience.

i wanna thanks to all those who came down.
and i wanna thank B for all these wonderful moments.
okay. short updates.
now i gonna have headache over my housing issues.

oh oh and i officially got my KEYS! :)

okay. photos please.

too many things. too little time.

2011-04-27T17:05:00.000+08:00

i am back!
and to a total fullstop for my travelling for this first half of the year.

taiwan and bangkok.
shiokness.
and i really totally shop till i drop dead.
shop till i am toooo lazy to bargain for every piece of clothes i wanna buy.
i guess my next trip will be end of the year!
TO HONG KONG :)
i totally love it there.
went with B there last year and we love the weather there.
this time we are just gg to chill and go prolly go macau or taiwan on the way.

okay.
so now the timetable comes in.
meet the photograpgher at 1pm on sunday
meet the interior designer at 4pm on sunday
collect and alter my gown at 2pm on monday (thats if i got fat from the trips)
yet to collect my ROM cert.
and gonna pass the invitation cards to my mom.
renov load done half way.

so many things.
and so little time.

am gg timbre with the girls after work this friday!
looking forward to it yo :)

mixed.

2011-04-21T15:21:00.000+08:00

how should i put it.
i am confused and i am thinking alot these few days.
stuff that i never thought i will think again.

i am in a state of trance.
help.

end of MARCH.

2011-03-22T11:41:00.001+08:00

its almost the end of march 2011.
how time flies. seriously.

went to do my ROM dress last week :)
a really nice lady and the dress is kinda cheap to purchase compare to if i were to rent it.
plus renting dont seems nice as the dresses are all worn before and looks a little dirty to me.
and whats best is that its MTM! better den anything and i requested for a different top to go with the bottom design. yay! POMPOM POMPOM dress i like!

it looks something like that but just that the whole dress will be in pure white and not the off white (same white as the top).

okay luh i know prolly it dont look as nice in this photo. but i love it love it love it! i have not seen the finish piece myself yet too but i love the top black lace part plus the bottom POMPOM part! so i think it should look great yay!

i am gonna fly off next month to 2 places.

13-17 taiwan.

22-26 bangkok.

02april - HDB 1st appt.

29april - collect the cert

30april - meet the photographer

i am jamm pack this april! but i am happy about it. bahahahhahaa :)

gonna do up a budget when i get paid this month. super tight mmmmm.

brit is coming back from canada as well in april! hell. i dunno how to plan my time seriously.

and yay bebykee says he is gg to bring me to hongkong at the end of the year..again i know. but still cos its a biz trippin for him. so he will pay for my airfare to go there and join him after he finish his stuff! but now we are wondering whether we should stay in hongkong or go to to taiwan (i know again.) or go to korea. actually tot of japan but i think they are not gg to recover that fast.

anyways, i kinda felt sad for those pple in japan. esp when ur whole family is spilt up. and you are just alone urself. i can totally feel the loneliness and the helplessness. i really hope pple will be fine over there.

saw something which i happen to browse thru. am having mix feelings about it. but nonetheless, i think i will just let it pass. ahhhh. forget it.

am gg to have company game's night this wednesday! CAPTAIN'S BALL 2011.
and our team has came out with a name:
VICTORIOUS SECRETS!
hahahaa hows that sound. i got it from an online teamname webbie.

well. i am gg facial today.
gg game's night tmr.
meeting jamie girl on thursday.
and friday. idk yet. hahaha!
sat to SCC to collect my cards and meet roy.

and its another 3.5 weeks to TW!
love it love it love it.

XOXOXOXOXO.
i love rainy days :)

RO.m

2011-03-10T17:08:00.000+08:00

weeeeeee. happiest at its best!
paid deposit for house and gg for the first appt on 1st april.
getting get in 11th may but extended 2 months for the seller cos we needa find renovation as well. plus minus a neat sum from the COV. great :)

booked seletar countryclub as the venue.
booked photographer for the day.
booked makeup artist for the day.
am gg to gown fitting on sunday!

I LOVE SHORT POMPOM DRESSES :D

lovin my life right now.
and i am happy that in the end, you are the one that is gg to walk own this path of life with me hand in hand.
love you bebykeeeeeee!

XOXOXOXO.

d.press

2011-03-02T15:15:00.000+08:00

gosh gosh gosh gosh gosh.
i think i am tooooo rush.
why am i always the one rushing and pushing.
i really wanna hold back.
i am pissed.
i am tired.
i am sick of it already.
seems like i am pushing or rushing you.
and you dont seems to gimme any feedback on what you think and all.
am i in this stupid thing myself or what.
seems like i am in a relationship with myself.
i just want to do it like anybody will want it.
but i know sometimes its tough.
and so i give leeways.

i dont see the results.
i really dunno what to do now.
if can,
i wanna restart this whole thing.
i think you just aint that into it.
prolly i am just thinking too much.

shite.

CNY'11

2011-02-09T16:53:00.000+08:00

today marks the 7th day of CNY!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ALL!

well CNY wasnt so bad this year yay cos the hongbaos were still the same plus mahjong mahjong over the festive period was good good great!
never been better :)

went to watch movie with family and B last night and the show wasnt really as good as i tot it will be. but ALL WELL ENDS WELL 2011 ROCKS BABY! super funny esp with donny *beams*

gg to MT FABER laters for RACHEL BIRTHDAY!
HAPPY DOUBLE BDAY GIRL! :D
may you be forever happy, bliss and pretty!

and there is still more to come for mahjong and bai nian this weekend plus.
I AM LOVIN' IT!
TOTALLY :)

Rabbit CNY.

2011-02-02T11:36:00.000+08:00

i am not enjoying this year CNY.

but i really wan to. the mood is there can!

i am sick. fever. infection and stomachache.

get well soon okay melly.

tonight i am gg to have my second round of reunion dinner. and after that,

B is coming to pick me for a movie.

ALL WELL ENDS WELL 2011 :)

well, happy RABBIT chinese new year :)

and may the ang bao be more den last year! hahhaa

happy collecting. and

HUAT ARHH!

fonder makers

2011-01-27T13:33:00.000+08:00

27 January 2011

everytime when i wanna blog about some stuff that happend, i really dont know how to pen them in words at the end.
its always like that. i dunno why.

was kinda pissed today.
because B couldnt make up his mind on some issues which i have always had high enthu in.

he said that there are still some stuff regarding these that we will have to discuss and yet to come up with a solution.

but i am always that kinda person where i will come up with a plan first become i do anything. and he is those kinda person who will only come up with a plan WHEN things happen.
well, person works in different ways. and so who's to blame.
i guess i shall just stop all the enthu gg on. prolly i am just pushing things abit too hard.

and there is a problem which have being always lingering in my mind. on and off.
i have been staying with B for almost 6 month. ever since we got together. and i have never stayed home since then.

and sometimes when i look at my friends or watch tv, it always make me feels that there is a sense of 'missing' the other party at night when both are at their own home.

or rather, 'absence makes the heart fonder'

i remember the last time i had this feeling was before i got together with B. which is like 6 months ago. and ever since, i have not felt that for the longest time.

there are moments when i really wanna go back to a 'normal' dating lifestyle. and i wanna go home to stay. but i just couldnt bring myself to make such a decision.

i know i will miss him.

and i know he will miss me too.

but i am just afraid.

of what i dont know.

maybe its just the shadow that is still lingering ard me that dont make me feel as safe.

tho i know that B like that.

sometimes when i look back, i really regret alot of stuff that i did. but i know that it could not be changed as a matter of fact.
i can only move on. take those as a lesson and learn from it.
yes i have to become a stronger person.

and now i am super addicted to this song.:

倪安东 - 散场的拥抱

从你的眼角慢慢地明了

我能做的很少

原来你藏着伤但不想和我聊

你选的电影像某种预告

不坦白的主角

最后流着眼泪坚持独自走掉

散场的拥抱我还在燃烧

但你心里的浪潮拒绝让我看到

你煎熬不肯定什么是最想要

爱才又像乐园又像监牢

散场的拥抱混乱的心跳

多宁愿只是争吵还能道歉和好

我知道你留着和他所有合照

明明面前是答案却撕掉不要

呵护地祈祷温柔地讨好

爱能让人渺小

苦笑冒充微笑浪漫得不肯逃

散场的拥抱我还在燃烧

但你心里的浪潮拒绝让我看到

你煎熬不肯定什么是最想要

爱才又像乐园又像监牢

散场的拥抱混乱的心跳

多宁愿只是争吵还能道歉和好

我知道我们和你们不能比较

但我的爱多强悍出乎你预料

散场的拥抱我还在燃烧

但你心里的浪潮拒绝让我看到

你煎熬不肯定什么是最想要

爱才又像乐园又像监牢

散场的拥抱混乱的心跳

多宁愿只是争吵还能道歉和好

我知道太美的回忆像副手铐

越是挣脱越缠绕我比你明了

helllo 2011

2011-01-17T17:23:00.000+08:00

goodbye 2010
hello 2011!

2010 has been quite a YEAR that i learn lotsa stuff from.
from relationships.*jerk*
from work. *bitch*
from friends. *I LOVE MY FRIENDS!*
from money matters. *save and manage*
from travel.*I MISS THE MEESUA FROM TAIWAN!*

and of cos i learnt myself. what i really want now.
and now i am STRONGER.
REAL TOUGH OKAY :)
special thanks to my friends. esp. a friend who has told me loads of his experience and the real truth. tho it hurts but better den those consoling and useless comment luh.
and he always says:

"WHAT DONT KILLS YOU WILL ONLY MAKES YOU STRONGER. AND ITS NOT LIKE YOU WILL DIE IF THERE IS NO HIM"

how true is that. the world wont stop spinning the cow wont stop eating right.
well
anyway

this will and shall be a GREAT GREAT 2011!

jing jing bells. HOHOHOHO!

2010-12-24T10:01:00.000+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS :)
Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells,Jingle all the way!Oh, what fun it is to ride
In a one-horse open sleigh.

Dashing through the snow
On a one-horse open sleigh,
Over the fields we go,
Laughing all the way;
Bells on bob-tail ring,
making spirits bright,
What fun it is to ride and sing
A sleighing song tonight

Oh, Jingle bells, jingle bells,
jingle all the way!
Oh what fun it is to ride
In a one-horse open sleigh

A day or two ago,
I thought I'd take a ride,
And soon Miss Fanny Bright
Was seated by my side;
The horse was lean and lank;
Misfortune seemed his lot;
He got into a drifted bank,
And we, we got up sot.

Oh, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells,
Jingle all the way!
What fun it is to ride
In a one-horse open sleigh.

HAVE A BLESSED CHRISTMAS EVERYONE! AND SHARE THE LOVE AROUND :)
HUGS ARE OVER THE WORLD TONIGHT.

tonight xmas partey at rach's
tmr xmas partey at B's

DND and Le.Runway

2010-12-03T17:00:00.002+08:00

goodbye sweet novemeber.
HELLO DECEMBER!

november has passed.
and now its the always raining wet season decemeber.
and this year i cant even feeeel the xmas moooood at all.
and because of the weather, i think i am gg to fall sick soooooon.

as usual now its raining like cow and chicken. and totally sitting in the office with a hot tea, i feeel so sleepy. so so so damn sleeeepppppy. sigh.

okay just a short update.
i have finally created a blogshop! yayness. got the stock some days ago and was lazy. TILL i realise that i am short of money (cos of the capital) den i decided to start the photo shoots and the page on fb.

do support yay! :)

Le.Runway
http://www.facebook.com/?ref=home#!/pages/LeRunway/118830791510024

LIKE our page now and get $1 off each purchase!

DND.

it was fun and i won myself a SAMSUNG DVD PLAYER! lucky lucky me :)

held at 1degree15 the food was still okay.

well shall update sooooon again. i am so sleepy now i cant think of wat to blog anymore.

movie tonight with B :)

busy november.

2010-11-23T17:06:00.000+08:00

yes its been a month since i last blog.
it was indeed a very very eventful and busy novemeber for me.

hongkong trippin. *7 days
my 25th birthday celebration. *3 days
my company's DND.
TOTAL NO. OF DAYS GONE = 12 DAYS. almost half the month gone.

am too lazy to load photos cos there are just tooo many.

hongkong trippin. *500 photos
birthday. *200 plus photos
TOTAL ALREADY =700 plus photos.

after loading them in fb, i am so lazy to load here and wait for the load time.
so if anyone wants to see the photos, go to my facebook please. heh :)

actually alot of stuff happens during this month.
happy, angry and not so happy stuff.

the good ones :)
well the trippin was GREAT! love it love it love it love it so much and i wanna go back again. already missed the wanton mee at tsim tsa chiu. the prawn wanton is woohoo! like 4 megabig water prawn in one thin and smooth skin. SHIOKNESS. where can you find that in sg seriously. sg all damn stingy can. the meat and prawn like a pinch and the skin is thick with flour. obviously cos flour is cheaper den meat. even beby commented delicious on that.
i simply just miss all the food there! damn nice and yummy. breakfast, lunch dinner supper everywhere is "chacha ting" ( okay i dunno how to spell).

well my birthday was a blast too! beby book a room at sentosa beach sentosa and we spent the whole weekend there:) went swimming, suntanning, underwater world, night walk, dinner blar blar. minus a little bickering over breakfast the 2nd day.
wanted to go universal studio the next day BUT it was raining and raining the whole sunday. very disappointing.
so we change it to next next sunday instead. *PLEASE DONT RAIN THIS TIME*

well. there is really tooo many things to update actually.
so i will just cut short and talk about what i rmb.

recently, i have been in real bad mood or bad tempered. i dunno what is it due to but i just had a few quite bad fight with B. but in the end we will always be okay.
sometimes its just that he dont get my point BUT he dont wanna listen to wat i have to say either and he just want it his way. WHICH i feel that no matter wat i say its useless. so therefore i zipped. and when i zipped, he will complaint saying that now i wanna be like that and dont talk. but whatever it is, i finally know that he is like me. heat up fast and cool down fast too. but i cool down faster thats why i always wanna patch things up first.
regardlessly, we are still doing great now! :) so prolly we should work something out instead.

and we plan to go australia next year may.

went cycling with rachel and kai last sunday. and my arse aches like mad. must be the lously bicycle seats. tmd.

dnd is this coming friday. and prolly i am not getting to dressy. dont wanna waste tooo much money on it as well.

november is coming to an end soon. and this was really a very happening month indeed.
thats all i can remember for now.
back to work! will blog sooon prolly after dnd :)

XOXO.

one more week

2010-10-26T18:21:00.002+08:00

one week from now I be packing my bags and be tooo excited to sleep!
it's our second trip overseas together!

香港我来了！

counting down :)

2010-10-19T16:56:00.001+08:00

working now. and its tuesday.
meaning another 13 DAYS TO HONGKONG :)
really excited about it. except for the 4 hours flight.
gonna meet B's friend HX and XT there as well cos they are gg 2 days eariler den us and coming back 1 day before us.
we have to plan to go shenzhen together cos its a goddamn dangerous place.

i think this time round i WILL and i MUST really budget myself to my budget. no more like taiwan. OVERBUDGET :( tho beby says its impossible, i will TRY to make it happen! heh.

one more thing.
another 25 DAYS TO MY BIRTHDAY:)
november is so so so gonna be happening for me.
beby says he gotten 3 presents for me. really excited to know what is it but he doesnt wanna give a single clue. ONLY when we are back from hongkong den he will reveal to me. make my heart feels damn itch.

gg for steamboating later when debbie and gangan :) its been so loooonnnggg since the last meetup!
and i am soooo looking forward to TOMORROW!
butter butter buttering finally. :) this is even longer.
will blog if there is any INTERESTING EVENT gg on tmr. well. that is if there is.
and daph i miss you :(

love the new job beby

2010-10-13T16:51:00.001+08:00

again i went missing i know.
just because i have stop working for 2 months and now.
but now i am officially back to desk and papers :)

started my new job on the 4th october'10.
office is damn new. pple here are all ard my age. attp anot i dunno yet.
got my own corner desk and loving it! no more along corridors lol.

another 20 more days to HONGKONG!

my new babies! 乐乐.不不

2010-09-07T15:55:00.000+08:00

our new babies :) love love love them to the max!

went to safari on his bday :) and we had so much fun. tho the walk was scary and creepppy.

there is still soooo many things and places to dooooo and goooo with youuuuu!

i wanna stick with you forever beby.love :)

pissed.rather D den C.

2010-08-25T20:45:00.001+08:00

i feel damn pissed now! suppose to meet up for steamboat WHICH you jio-ed 2 weeks ago. and you couldnt make it last week cos you have stomach flu or whatever. so we postpone to this week. everything was planned for tonight's meetup already.
i was changing and making up to meet you WHEN suddenly you told me LAST MIN you have a friend joining. okay fine. i am FINE if your friend is a girl BUT its not. and i thought this was supposed to be a GIRL'S meetup where we can start bitching and enjoy steamboating together. and yay who will feel comfortable steamboating with a stranger esp when its a guy somemore. its not that i am petty or unfriendly. but at least have the curtoesy to ask if i am okay if u wanna ask your friend along. so say if i DIN msg you and ask if you wanna meet eariler i will NEVER know that u asked another friend along until i meet you up? and what really pissed me off was ur last msg seriously. " cuz we ask him if he wanna join at the last min too and he just confirm only. so we thought just steamboat together lor. k la wont force you to come if you are not comfortable with it"

WTF totally.
you jio-ed me 2 WEEKS ago. you LAST min jio-ed him. and now you are gg to forsake me over him? then in this case next time dont jio me so early. dont keep me waiting for dates and last min dicks over chicks. and cant you just tell him to meet another day and tell him that ur gf is not comfortable with a guy. wth. you rather "k lah me dont force me since i am not comfortable" den tell him to meet another day. shiteyou.

seriously totally this is bullshite.
firstly, you din even BOTHER to ask if i am okay if you were to ask a friend along. somemore its a guy.
secondly, you FORSAKE me over a guy who u jio-ed LAST MIN. when u already jio-ed me 2 WEEKS ago.
thirdly, steamboating is only with close friends,m relative or people that you know. WHY the hell would i wanna eat with someone i know today. and its a farking guy. i dont care if he is friendly, handsome or whatsoever. i only enjoy steamboating with my love ones. not just some strangers. plus you say u wanna bitch. what if i said something about someone whom he is close with den i will be digging my own grave right. and plus girl's talk. you think i can talk about GIRL'S talk in front of guys? wah lao. think of it luh. even guys have guys night out and why when they have night out they sometimes DONT even bring their gfs along.
comeon seriously you should be old enough to think about all these and I DONT have to tell you and explain so much either.

okay i am totally pissed at this MOMENT. think i am petty or whatever you want to think. cos i am not the only one that feels this way if this thing happen to others as well.

and all along i tot we were CLOSE SISTERS. so much for it.

misses.kisses.

2010-08-19T16:03:00.002+08:00

its been so long since i last updated! yay yay tho i am not working and i should have more time to blog, i am just damn lazy.

still, it has been very very very eventful for me EVERY SINGLE DAY for the past 19 days. :)

me and B. went to malaysia, ikea, movies, dinner, shopping, lazing at home, dramarama, expo sales! i just love gg everywhere and doing everything with you beby kee! :)

huggs and kisses.

and i loveeeeee this baby
cos its my beby kee.
so adorable!
love you max max kayy :)

am gg to watch movie later on with beby kee :)

gonna pick him up after work! hahahaa.

such a good bgf hur.

well will update soooooooon again!

tml night seafood dinner with M&S best colleauges.

sat afternoon birthday lunch with mommy and beby and gathering at shelia's place.

cant wait for facial tml! seriously seriously i need one BADLY. :(

XOXO:)

to weekend with ♥

2010-08-07T16:25:00.000+08:00

yay :) loooonnggggggest weekend EVER!

did ask for early release on friday 06082010 and it was approved. so thats my last day with M&S.

really enjoyed working there with great great colleagues and pretty babes and i will sure miss all of them! cos prolly they are the BEST BEST BEST colleagues i will ever have. like seriously ever. gooosshhh. miss the times when we have lunch tog and we dunno what to eat. miss the times when we will go to robs after lunch to get stuff here and there. miss the gossipping and kopi kopi times. i just misses everything. and i din get to say goodbye to the VM team :( they are prolly the best abd most easy gg pple to work with! awwwww. MISS YOU ALL MAX!

oh well. least i can R&R now! hahaha and i am soooo loving it. TTM.

and this is gg to be a packed and good weekend!

sat: marcus baby's birthday.

sun: bbq-ing

mon: queensway, ikea lunching and prolly msia

tues: back to return my stuff and to accompany B to do his stuff.

wed: ladiesnight! *well thats IF deb and daph can make it tho*

the remaining of the weeks are unsettled. but prolly gonna stay home more to company my mommy and pack my overloaded rooom.

IMPT.

mom's birthday is on the 18th August.

beby's birthday is on the 26th August.

now what should i do. totally have no idea on what to get for them! gooshh. mayb its time to go out for some shopping session!

B. came over to my place on thursday and drove me to work on friday! so love ♥ :)

i am sooo into loving you right now honeybunny!

well, am home now waiting for B. to pick me up to marcus baby's birthday later in the evening tonight.

and i am missing you mahjong. WHERE ARE YOU! :(

cute.

2010-08-07T16:05:00.000+08:00

01082010 ♥

2010-08-02T12:07:00.009+08:00

suppose to go to USS today. but DARN THE RAINN!!

okay lar we din book tickets as well. hahaha totally forgot that we needed to book tixs online beforehand. duh. sotongs.

and so we ended up in marina square, suntec and MBS. went ard and ard and ard and ard.

there was nothing much to do. no movies to watch too. and its drizzling the WHOLE DAMN DAY.

walked from marina square to suntec. and i got my fav.

AUNTIE ANNE'S

i am so super in love with their chocolate mint prets!

and i swear i could eat them everyday! yummilious yay :)

after my super madlove pretz ended in my tummy, we decided that we should just headed over to MBS. to see, look, touch, feel, and kpo. since it was still DRIZZLING, B. decided that we should just cab over. at least the parking fee wont kill us either.

well, first time to MBS and its so 'genting' feel.

and i pity the old man that has to roll the boat. like REAL HARDCORE rolling.

comparing to the one in genting which in on machine trails.

nothing much gg on there. and we din stay there for long. plus i wasnt feeling well either.

yay i know its like so bad. already almost close to 2 weeks and my flu and cough is still there. darndarndarndarndarn.

took this at MBS. superlove the madchio CHANEL logo to the MAX!

saw this at marina square at the catchybear machine area next to the cinema.

and yeesssss gooosshhhh the DOCOMO is like REAL BIG! and sofft. so cudddly. so cutee :)

~~and yes i know. please notice my puffy eyes. they are such a pain in the arse.~~

prolly i overdosed my cough med and forced myself to wakeup cos i was super duper late, hence the stupid puffinesss. and i think my whole face is pufffed before of my sickness too! dammit. hateit. period.

now i cant wait for my HK trip. HONGKONG HONGKONG WITH ♥! :)

and i marks today with ♥

and with tons of TLC.

B.♥

bite.

2010-07-30T16:15:00.001+08:00

i will buy some gummybears for you next time!
so that you wont bite me anymore :D

webcam.carebear.stitch.B.

2010-07-29T22:14:00.001+08:00

things i did today and yesterday. =)

we webbycammed. and i disturb him hohohohoo!

love this SUPER DUPER COLOURFUL CAREBEAR TO THE MAX MAX MAXXX!

this was the ONLY ONLY ONLY ONE in the entire 'catchybear' machine =)

and he got it for me! WITH ONLY 2 TRIES. yaya very pro huuurr. haaha ^^

and i wanted to get him the stitch with lovely lovely eyes...

BUT I FAILED LAR! also with 2 tries. so 'lao qweee' can...

i dont believe i cant get it like seriously. CANNOT BE CANNOT!!!

i will be BACK TO CATCH YOU! you better wait for me too. hummpf*

i am such a happy girl now!

HAPPY HAPPPY=)

hmmm. there is said to be a surprise this coming sunday. hmmm. i really really REALLY wonder what is it about.

it got me all curious and itch just wanting to KNOW. shitee i dont like it >.<

but i do LOVE surprises. HAHAHAHAA.

PATIENCES MY DEAR PATIENCES.

~~只怕我自己會愛上你~~

~~不敢讓自己靠的太近~~

two in a million.

2010-07-28T15:58:00.001+08:00

Out of all the boys, you're not like the others
From the very first day, I knew we'd be lovers
In my wildest dreams, my darkest desire
Would I declare to you, your love takes me higher
Just when we both thought our lives were set in stone
They shone a light, and brought us together

We are two in a million
We've got all the luck we could be given
If the world should stop, we'll still have each other
And no matter what, (no matter what)
We'll be forever as one
It's a crazy world, where everythin's changin'

One minute your up, and the next thing you're breakin'

When I lose my way, and the skies they get heavy
It'll be ok, the moment you're with me
No-one would have guessed we'd be standing strong today
Solid as a rock, and perfect in every way
We are two in a million
We've got all the luck we could be given
If the world should stop, we'll still have each other
And no matter what, (no matter what)
We'll be forever as one

forever as one.

NDP.tw

2010-07-14T15:07:00.002+08:00

went NDP preview with debabyy :)

it was so funny. esp when the planes and the birds flies together, you can tell which is which! haha had a fun time there and thanks JANCHI FOR THE TIXS!

and actually most of the time we were facebooking on our iphones. haha. and debaby had problem logging in to her account and was paranoid. thinking was it hack or sth.

and we had to finish one of the bottles water to make the bag lighter. its so damn freaking HEAVY.

we took lots of photos but i am so lazy to load. soo sooooo soooooooo lazy. sighhh.

anyway i be flying off to TAIWAN on friday morning! yiiippiieeesss :D so excited now. and i have not even packed. as usual, i will stick to my last min packing.

went to chinatown on sunday to change money and went town to shop! its been the longest time since i went town and really do some shopping. *tho i am working in town everyday but i dont have the time to shop. after work is all tired and sleepy and town is damn crowded.* i was so happy that day :) its been so long that i went out in the afternoon and go home at night. rather den the other way round. go out at night come back in the morning. and i feel so contented!

was suppose to meet deb and daph ytd. but i was all tired fro mthe dramarama. and we call it off. and now we are suppose to meet today, nobody can cfm anything. :( i miss you debbiebabby! tons of stuff to bitch to you about. oh mannn.

*you called and showed concern. i know you care i know you miss. but its too late. from the moment you tell me straight in the face in front of the clown that you like her and you got no feelings for me, i have already decided what i really want. tho my emotions has been swaying me for sometime but now i stand firm with my decision or rather. your choice. thanks for letting me go. cos i know i can never let you go. and now, i will live better and i will be better. thanks for everything. thanks for the memories, the times we had, the love and care. i am sorry but i can only wish you all the best. for now, you will always be my friend. and i will always be yours too.. *

yours truly.

taiwan here i come babyy!

dolllynight.

2010-07-08T17:41:00.001+08:00

went for STARBUCKS green freppe with deb at town. daph din turn up because she was having fever :(

talk alot of stuff with deb. terrible things.

but still STARBUCKS and gf = BEST ♥

went to dolly awhile with deb and friends. actually not a bad place to sit drink and chill. music wasnt as bad as i tot it was. green tea with henessy was quite good actually!

gonna meet deb later again! for some starbucks and movie despicable me :) i know we like hardcore starbucking now but its ♥. total quality time spent together.

lots of ♥,

melly loves you.

3 weeks already. time really flies.

DDM

2010-07-07T17:17:00.000+08:00

i love DDM :)

thanks babes for being there for me. and listen to my complaints and all!

and i definately love STARBUCKS with yall with the bitching gg on.

cant believe its so happening in each of our lives!

esp. ~~YOU.~~ hahaha.

and more ladiesnight please! esp you. deb.

damn fun fun fun and funny funny funny to the max max max!

LETS BRING IT BACK!

have been meeting up really often with deb esp. like almost 3 times a week. just for bitching and coffee and complaints. really really love the company to the MAX. i can really just tell her every SINGLE thing i wanna say and complaint about anyone anybody and anything! love you babyy!

been doing alot of things lately too. really just wanna keep myself occupied. and it has been a really really good week :)

i dunno why are you like caught in the middle when u are ALREADY with her. please. since u decided to make her ur gf den she is OFFICIALLY urs. you dont have to be caught in the middle. esp when you say you got phobia of me lah you scare i wont change lah whatever lah.

and i should be the one who is really scare. how would i know if you will do the same thing to me again anot. how would i know if you will lie to me anot.

you came over my place on a sat night at 4am. telling me you wanna see me cos you miss me and all. but i already told you. if you think that girl is good with the way she treat you, i tell you i can be MUCH better.

MUCH MUCH MUCH BETTER OFF.

no point me telling you all these now. its has been 15 days after our break up. and 9 days since you are OFFICIALLY with her. (when i already know before yall were official, yall were already holding hands and stuff *another lie*)

i think i really had enough.

i am not a backup plan nor a fallback plan.

i cant be there for you 24/7.

i am NOT an option.

you need someone to treasure you, ask ur GIRLFRIEND. i only treasure my boyfriend.

and now i think you have already made ur choice, your decision. so there shouldnt be any regrets. cos NOBODY FORCES YOU in the first place.

i am just gonna be myself. do things i wanna do. go places i wanna go. and with my company of friends and gfs, i will never be alone :)

THANKS TO YALL MY FRIENDS AND BABES! LOVE YALL TO THE FULLEST!

gonna meet deb later for dinner, coffee and some dolly. *ahem* HER dolly. *winks*

daph suppose to come but she is having high fever :( take great care okay darling. i shall give you a big hug next week! and you better come next week okay! :)

signing off,

one and only yours truly.

*cant wait for 6. cant wait for 16th. :)

misses.

2010-07-03T23:36:00.000+08:00

i miss you.

i miss doing things with you.

i miss eating macspicy with you.

i miss waiting for you while you do ur job and go over to the next job tog.

i miss watching you playing game.

i miss you showing ur temper when u cant get what u want in the game.

i miss cuddling you to sleep.

i miss gg bangkok and genting with you.

i miss gg to jurong point and you have to queue just to get my fav noodle.

i miss waiting for you to shower.

i miss watching online movie with you in bed.

i miss us playing iphone games tog and breaking high scores.

i miss when we go to the supermarket and you get my fav mentos and duck porridge.

i miss you waiting for me at the mrt station.

i miss having to walk to the mrt station early in the morning when i hated it.

i miss walking in the rain and you said it was romantic.

i miss when you uses my name as ur character in the game.

i miss prawning with you when i got 'kip' by the stupid prawn.

i miss you sleeping beside me.

and i miss alot of things we do together...

i really miss you.

i miss your hugs.

i miss your kisses.

i miss the touch of your face.

i just misses you much.

but still i have to go on. and i know i can never feel what i miss anymore.

i have really kept all these in my heart. and its not feeling good.

~~please stop thinking already.~~

i am just a girl too.

2010-07-02T16:02:00.000+08:00

you called.
yes i admit i was happy.
but the purpose of calling was not really what i expected.

you told me to be ur BFF.
sorry i cant.
its not that i am petty its just that you dunno how i feel cause you are not me.

i think i really had enough of all these.
i am washing my hands off.
i don't wanna think anymore.

since she is such a good girl, go treasure her.
and ask her to treasure you.
and i wont blame you for not giving me a chance to treasure you
cos i WILL only treasure my boyfriend.

since u already made up ut mind and all then
good luck and really all the best.
cos i dun see this going anywhere.

and dun keep telling me how she feel because because she is a girl
i am just a girl too.

whatever it is,
just a clear cut end.

i am tired but now i have to occupy myself MORE.
~~mentally strong. emotionally weak.~~

so this is goodbye.

2010-06-30T12:13:00.000+08:00

memories can never be forgotten. even tho how hard you try to. and now i leave my memories here.

for you, have been part of my life.

and you should know that i have never let you go before.

if this is really what it is, then all i can say is that i have already tried my very best. and put in all my effort and heart in it. but this was never one sided so i guess i cant do much anymore.

well, hope someday you will really think about whatever i have told you before. and really only do whats worth and not whats not.

hope someday you will do realised that everything i do, i do it for you.

you were my priority but i was just an option.

for you my dearest. MCPJ.RLGQ

robin lin guo qiang.

whowants tobe a BIMBO!

2010-06-29T17:43:00.000+08:00

BIMBO.
1.an attractive but empty headed woman.
2. a fellow; person esp a foolish one.

oh now i know why. cos its the same category.

oh well. go away if you don't like reading it.

ihatethatiloveyou.

2010-06-24T16:26:00.003+08:00

gosh. hangover.

hangover not really on drinks or rather its the image of ytd's happening. it just kept replaying over and over in my head. actually i should be feeling happy. seriously comparing myself with that B. not worth it. dun even needa compare. just use ur eyes and see. obviously am telling you.
well ur choice ur loss not mine.

tell me how HOW can i do it. hardway or easyway out. is it really really thats it?

~~damn. i just hate myself for loving you.~~

i just dun wanna history to repeat itself anymore. cos i know i cant take it easy like last time anymore. i got my limits. and i learnt my lesson.

for now, i will keep myself to myself. thats it.

and i wanna get my laptop and camera back asap. thank you.

__________________________________________________________________________

went butter last night with CHA and co. and i was in my office wear. okay so weird. nv will i wear that to club anymore. but i got no choice cos i met CHA after work. and she ask me to join her so well i wanna see if i can still endure the ladiesnight and go work the next day. and yes i did it!

really been so long since i last clubbed. okay still can move but the vodka is giving me rashes on my arm again. dammit. seriously no more vodka i swear.

~~i just cant get over what happened ytd. forgoodnesssake stopreplayinginmymind PLEASE!!!~~

i need more martell please.

KPO FELLOW

2010-06-23T18:13:00.000+08:00

yes i am heartbroken and i dun like this feeling.

~~so i am only gg to be sad for a week and thats it.~~

hopefully i can do that tho. its so hard. and i am so angry with myself for feeling like a total shite.

hate the stupid KPO FELLOW which commented on his status post:

kns... drink wat johnny walker in the middle of the day? and who is he to comment on our relationship. just a stupid online game friend and wanna talk like as if he knows every details of our relationship. please lar wake up ur farking idea la. not everybody's relationship is the same as yours can. not every GF is like urs can. and not every guy is like you so KPO can.

and wat tree and forest? you monkey arh. den go live in a jungle la! talk like a love expert. prolly must have been ditch by tons of girls thats explains for all these stupid experience and nonsense. and who dunno the feeling is like shite at first. do you see couples happily breaking up before? break already can go la kopi together huh. crap lar. and what is RAT ARSE. u see a RAT arse before is it. ur face looks like a RAT lar! and wat my blog like ur ex. ur ex is ur ex la. DIFFERENT INDIVIDUALS OKAY. DUN COMPARE YOU RATARSE.

and what is 'facking sad ATM'? what ATM? u drunk until u wanna go draw money is it. and who in the hell dunno TIME HEALS EVERYTHING? HELLO WE ARE NOT IN OUR TEENS ANYMORE! AND MY EX ALSO NV SAY HE IS FEELING DAMN SAD OR WHAT RIGHT! if single is good, DUN EVER LEMME SPOT U HAVING A GF. WHAT NONSENSE. den might as well go be monk la also good ma CAN BE SINGLE ALL UR LIFE AND GOT SO MANY GUYS THERE TO ACCOMPANY YOU TO BE SINGLES TOO.

SERIOUSLY IF YOU DRINK DEN DUN COMMENT LAR. GO AND SLEEP LAR. stupid ratarseirritatingfark.

so old still no gf. must be problematic guy. stupidshitehole. goodfornothing.

arghh i am so angry now!!!

confused.

2010-06-11T17:25:00.000+08:00

i am so confused. messed up. and i dun even know what the hell i really really want. i need a guide here. i need a direction. i need to know what the hell i want.

i dunno its the feelings that is not getting right anymore. 1.5 years isnt very long nor considering it short. but drift seems to be so much more far apart. i feel tat we are no longer so attached like before. and i dun sense the TLC as before. has it all faded? or am i just asking more of it from you and i have yet to rec'd. i really dunno. and now to you games and gg out with ur goddamn friends are like so impt that you got to go to the extend of lying. i really dunno but everynight when i could get you or just that u said u wanna go sleep earlier and not waking up the next day for work or when i meet u after that u del all ur call log, it will always get me to suspect that you did really went out the previous night. but reason you gave was you were playing game when u woke up like 2 hours later from ur sleep till next morning. seriously you expect me to believe. to tell you the truth, I DON'T BELIEVE. yes you might be a game freak but as long as i know you, its not often that you will wake up in the middle of the night to play games and forgo work the next day.

sometimes i really just wanna give everything up. i am so sick and tired of suspecting this and that and we always end up quarrelling. mayb what jas says is true when 2 person are tog, they have to learn to trust if not wats the point of being tog. and i should not be the one thinking about this and that whether you will go out or not and rather you should be the one assuring me with all the answer in my head.

i know you are trying to work harder and trying to save. but i dunno seriously i dun wan a relationship with no feelings or commitment or just for the sake that we are too use to be next to each other. i want a relationship that will last forever. i want you to be holding my hands even when we are in our whites. i want the feeling of me and you to be like our first date everyday. but it seems to be like its not getting any near any of my wants.
am i asking too much? i dun think so. i guess what i want was really just back to basic relationships. stable mature and lasting.

is it really so hard. really envy those ard we when they really find the other half in their life and they are just so sure that they were meant to be for one another.

are you really my half. or is my half still somewhere out there.

ytd night i tot alot to myself. i really have the sudden urge but i just didn't do it. i am afraid actually. afraid of something which i could'nt tell.

am i just going the right direction now?

stupid connection.

2010-06-07T22:55:00.000+08:00

its 10:43pm and raining super heavily outside now.
bailey's is lying under my bed and refuses to sleep on the bed with me. guess she is scare of the thunder.
well yes i am FINALLY back home. and i must admit that my own bed is still the BEST! loveyoubedy:)

i am now using the stupid m1 mobile connection to watch a movie and it loading time is freaking taking 23456787654123hours to complete. wth. and my battery is gonna only last for 3.5 hours :( better lemme finish the show dammit.

mom just old me over dinner that this year end we prolly might go to japan if not den we will postpone to next year paris. well. i am so worried now. worried about my company not allowing me to take year end leave! its so unfair can. when its norms that pple travel mostly on year end. i know i am gg to hongkong on nov and my boss already say he will think about it. so i dun think that i have a high chance of getting to take leave again just for the japan trip. thats if we are gg.
anyway i feel that my leave is toooo little. its not even 14 days like most of the company out there. i always think that i dun have enough leave. first half of the year already wasted half on bkk trip and than i only left with the other half and norm year end trips are longer so i dun even think i have enough leave to cover. gosh.headache can.

am feeling tired and sleepy already dun even know what the heck i am typing. please pardon me if there are spelling error grammar error or whatever error u can find in this post. the rain is good. i am gg to sleeeeeep.

good night baileylove:)

hongkonghongkong!

2010-06-04T16:07:00.000+08:00

okay after a month of not blogging ~~i wanna slap myself~~. but sometimes i really dunno what to blog about anymore.

okay i admit ~~i am lazy to load photos here too~~. cos photos are all uploaded in fb! so i dunno why do i still need to load photos here. okay but still i will make it an effort to load yea!

i just book the hotel to hongkong for my nov trippin! getting so excited! tho i just went last year but its beby first trip there! its kinda nice fun and shopping is like crazy there! I have found a superb nice and great location hotel too!

i know the name of the hotel is so hard to pronouce...

yes its super nice and comfy looking style hotel located just OPPOSITE TIMES SQUARE! and its a STONE THROWN AWAY from causeway bay mrt! *quoted from the website.* haha :) and it looks os comfy and nice right right right! I KNOW! hahaar!!

anyway beby's mom suggested to go on cruise on the 18th to 20th June. hmmm. the only thing i am gonna do onboard is to take photos take photos and GAMBLE GAMBLE GAMBLE! BUT only with limited resources this time round! i dun wanna 'deposit' too much money there. HA!

work is CRAZY now. when there is GSS esp. i feel like dyinnnnnng! and my body drain so fast every single day. the moment i reach home, have dinner and i feel like sleeping already. and yes its this JIALAT!. *sad*

~~CS FROM HDB ARE KNS! really seriously ultimately.~~

HONGKONG WITH LOVE!

2010-05-04T15:50:00.001+08:00

yes yes yes i just book my end of the year HONGKONG TRIP!
and yes i know i just went last year december ~~so what.~~ and i am loving it! gonna buy and do stuff that i haven did last year when i went. SHIOKNESS *beams* ^^

went over to kai house for mahjong on the weekend and xiao hei (the puppy) was whining so badly. it could hardly stand, hardly drink nor hardly eat. it really pains to see the pup like this. esp when someone touches it, it will whine soo badly and loudly and its like pirecing pain that kind kay. hope she will feel better over time. rach told me she took it for xray, blood test, checks... totally up to almost 2k already and its not helping. and every vet is saying the same thing cos they couldnt find anything that is wrong with it.
sigh. xiao hei is so cute so cute can. really hope she will be fine.

shelia's babygirl is gonna have a one month celebration on the 15th May if i am not wrong. so fast and she is almost a month old already. time really flies like nobody's biz.

this sat is Eloy's bday celebration held at scarlet city (amk hub) and i dun know what to get for her! agnes b or what. i still got 4 more days to think about it . THINK THINK THINK!. i cant la...

something happen on sunday night but i am glad that beby was WILLING TO clear the air and clarify with me. make her sound so despo too. and I HAVE THE LAST LAUGH OKAY BITCHSLUTWHORE.
my mind is all about HONGKONG NOW LAR!

i feel so tired of EVERYTHING that is gg on. gosh.

2010-04-30T14:56:00.002+08:00

~~i am feeling like shite. TOTALLY.~~
~~DAMNFARKINGSIANTOMAXMAXMAX.~~

~~why is everything happening AGAIN AND AGAIN.~~
~~you not sian i sian okay.~~

~~is it really so hard to keep a promise?~~
~~is it so difficult for you just to STOP WHATTHEFARK that i dun like?~~
~~JUSTFARKING STOPIT LAR. IRRITATINGARSEHOLE.~~

maybe everything aint the same anymore. this is so stupid seriously. becos of the farkingbitches you wanna treat me like this den might as well go find a farkupbitch as ur gf. i cannot tolerate this kinda nonsense. say i petty or watever you want cos i know there is no gf in the world who can tolerate this. and i have already talk to you about it before and chance given. if you dun appreciate it TELL ME.

~~if you are so lack of sisterly love den tell me I BE UR SISTER NOT GIRLFRIEND. stupid.~~
~~arggghhhhhhh farkfarkfark.~~

~~this is getting no where.~~
~~WE NEED TO HAVE AN AGREEMENT.~~
~~that is if i think we still can continue.~~

~~WAKE UP YOUR FARKINGIDEA AND THINKTHINKTHINK.~~

~~enough is enough.~~
~~toleration has a limitation.~~

up and away!

2010-03-30T15:03:00.000+08:00

yupp finally got my blog all done up! tho there is not much of a change. *lazy to edit already* but at least its nicer :) at least to me

from now i shall blog more often at least once a week i wanna continue this blog its because i use to have a lot of blogs (open new account and close, open, close) before and none lasted long but now this blog consist of old memeries back then LONNGGG along and i can just bring back the old memories anytime i want. (about the bas****) HAHAHA.

okay.
updates updates.

BKK trip coming up!!! so happy bout it. 15th april - 19th april with RAC, KAI, BEBY.
shelia's babygirl is coming! so excited to see the newborn soon >.<
my boss birthday is on next friday. meaning drinking drinking.
i wann go KTV, CLUB! less mahjong-ihope.

applied for HDB and got it to choose my flat! :D
but i am pondering should i or should i not.

cant wait for 15th april to come!!!

yours truly

2010-02-26T12:23:00.001+08:00

with love always and forever,

REVAMP!

2010-01-15T17:36:00.000+08:00

i wanna revamp my blog...
but this is like taking ages. gosh.
I CAN DO IT! :)

to or not to.

2009-09-28T18:51:00.003+08:00

finally back and i know i know i have neglect my blog like hell long.
but i am just so lazy to even on my laptop.

okay cut all the unnecessary talk. now i am pondering whether i should or should not open a blogshop. cos there are so many things to consider. hmmmm. esp. on clothes supply. oh well.

CAN ANYONE TELL ME IF I CAN GO INTO DOING BLOGSHOP? and was thinking of partnership and we can shop like crazy wahahhahaa anyone interested? lols

watever.

2009-08-28T12:53:00.000+08:00

I AM NO PUSHOVER.

And I wanna go club, play mahjong, eat steamboat, shopping and chillout with my loves:D
esp to you DYLAN KANG hugggs.

And I shall look forward to it.

boredom shooo.

2009-07-09T21:05:00.001+08:00

current location at toapayo. and and my left eye is hurting like crazy. totally farkup. prolly due to not enough rest plus dryness. but whatever it is I just hope there's nothing to do with my corea.

went phuture ytd for ladies night and it was kinda sucky. went with melody *another me* haha n hello debbie =)

totally T.G.I.F tomorrow *beams* =D
I want month end to come soon.

and at the end of the day, it was still always you. is the place really irreplaceable or wat.
damnit

2009-06-16T12:30:00.000+08:00

It was freezing cold this morning and I was really reluctant to go to work. Forced myself up and went for a shower. Bailey was still sleeping on my bed waiting for me to change so that she can head down and take a walk while mommy drive me to the train station.

I felt great prolly cos the first half of the year kinda sucks for me and now its turning better and better. Planned for beybeh’s birthday already and it shall be a surprise (:

There are certain stuff which I totally dun understand. I got a friend and he is so obsess with this girl that she is like controlling his life. Gosh. Really bad. And regards to this issue, I am totally speechless. He can really do anything or go any distance for her and yet she is like taking things for granted. Well, friends and I can just stand and see how she ‘destroy’ his life cos no matter how much advise we gave or how determine he shows he wanna change things, in the end it will always be the same. Nothing really changed.
I gave up on advising him already. Totally pointless.

Well work is still okay. It’s the third week since I joined this company and things have been picking up quite smoothly tho I still make mistakes here n there. And my colleagues are much friendlier towards me already. Felt like some kinda alien when I started in this company. Totally got ignored and not as friendly as my ex co. weird isn’t it. Well at least its getting better and better (:

Gonna meet up ray and ey laters for dinner at Holland V. its been so long. And my crave for clubbing is coming. HAHAHHAHAA. Rebel. Dbl O. or prolly mahjong. LOLS(:

And I am gonna sign for my MANHANTTAN CARD. Its not the fish market one k CHA. It’s the STANDARD CHARTERED one.

Okay love you all chaos.
Hugs and kisses.

maybe love.

2009-05-26T14:27:00.005+08:00

its been so long since i last updated my blog and its not tat i dun wan to but its just that recently i am hit with alot of emotions.

emotions from stuff which i really hope i never know.

emotions from pple who thinks that i am taking their advantage.

emotions from someone else who really cared about me.

emotions from someone who happens to be a important part of my life.

but now i guess this emotions will die off very soon because i happen to be not the most important part in that person's life anymore.

nothing much really did happen for the past few days. everything still remains the same except that i have starting working like a week ago and buy my new VAIO CS26 RED lappie.

yes like finally and the salesman is good! threw into tons of new stuff for me. (:

yes butterfactory. dun really like that place tho. damn crowded each time i go. but oh well once a while wont kill i gueesss. and i got my new GUCCI wallet. like finally.

goodbye old.
HELLO NEW(:

p.s shall upload more often kay (: hee.

neglect and its all because of you.

2009-05-04T00:27:00.000+08:00

yes yes i know its been so long since i had a proper post and till now i got tons of photos to load and well all of them are in my fb tho. lazyness and plus all the not feeling oh-so-well going on all over me. and i was even hospitalise before my trip to BKK. damn the pain seriously.

other than the BKK trip i really haven been doing much since i am not working anymore. seems like my life for DVDS and late night supper mahjonging are back again!
oh well lemme think wat have i done this for this few days.

mahjong(: I LOVE.
movie. X-MEN & KNOWING
clubbing. DBL-O *like finally.
DVDS. DESP HOUSEWIVES SEASON 4&5 PLUS 2 HK SERIES. total of 25DVDS.
chilling. at SUMMER BREEZE
shopping. BOUGHT A BLACK BABYDOLL TOP FOR CHACHA'S BDAE.

okay i am lacking of GOOD FOOD! but i am already putting on weight seriously. i needa cut at least 2KGS before CHACHA's bday. and i know its SO HARD NOW esp when i am like eating sleeping and nua-ing whole day with my DVDS and bailey baby. gosh.

and my tomyam crave is still there):

there are still things and stuff which i am upset with and about. i dunno how and why. but recently i am starting to have flashback and dreams about the past. about you. and you know who you are.
sometimes i really hope that certain things have never happen before. but the results are always lesson well learn. maybe maybe i just need a little more time and space alone please.

and i live for nights that never end.

farkingsickenning

2009-04-25T04:32:00.002+08:00

I AM REALLY DAMN SICK AND TIRED OF ALL THIS SHITE ALREADY.
AND SERIOUSLY THIS TIME I AM SO NOT GONNA GIVE A DAMN.

NO MATTER WHAT.
FARKSHITE.

2009-04-07T14:36:00.003+08:00

i am so SICK to blog. O.M.G.
been having this tummy ache+cramp+fever+cold+neck pain+hungry feeling for the pass few days):

nothing much really happened last week. only that.
I WENT BUTTER FACTORY ON WED WITH DAPH.
PLAYED MAHJONG ON SUNDAY WITH J.D.B.M.
and yes i WON(: and they all lost to a "skirt" LOLS.

well found these pretty interesting on a page.

arrgghhh. sorry totally no mood to blog about anything.

TOTALLY PAIN AND UPSET):

another 8 days to BKK(: weeeeee.

i cant turn back anymore. i got to move forth.

2009-03-28T13:50:00.002+08:00

saturday 28thMARCH(:

did this perm myself. kinda proud of it since mommy's friends said that its nice. haha. i had been wondering how it hell to use the perm curler till i saw a video online which teaches. GOOD. but somehow its hard to manage to i still kinda like straight hair. and plus straight hair wont made my face LOOK BIIGG.

oh well ytd night was a lously one for me. plus it was really a waste of time. ahhhh. dun wanan tok about it. so sucky.

and now i miss daph. i miss rebel. I MISS CLUBBING!!!

when are we ever going again...

saw this cute pretty angel on my facebook(: its weilun's cousin i think hahaha. sooo cute lar. i'll made my baby go take photoshoot too! so adorable. so sweet. so awwwwww *i wanna pinch ur cheeeeek*

later on its finally MAHJONG TIME AGAIN! really like finally lar. its been almost 1 whole month since i last touch mahjong. I MISS YOU MAHJONG! woooo~ gonna play at bunbun place cos his family went over to m'sia for the weekend! yaynesssss(:

and i'm gonna play with cai niao, uncle winkle and potato later! hahahaha uncle man BEWARE COS THE MAHJONG QUEEN IS HERE! lols(: and later when i ask "uncle james aka aunty jamie" for money you better say "ALL YOU CAN. SURE YOU CAN" hahaha *st.fighter ryu* LOLS(: okay if you understand its a private joke. heh.

and i found this over the website. interesting.. mahjong school set up in HONGKONG!

Mahjong (麻將) is a popular game in Chinese community which often played as a gambling game; and it is intensely popular in Hong Kong.
Privately-run gambling businesses are illegal in Hong Kong, but there are legal Mahjong schools for people to ‘learn to play’ Mahjong… but you probably can guess that most people who are ‘learning’ Mahjong are actually experts.
There are not many licenses issued for Mahjong school though; lots of it can be found in Yaumatei-Mongkok area.

i wanna go clubbing clubbing. and cant wait for 15th APRIL BKK BKK! another 2.5 weeks to gooo!

helllo thursday(:

2009-03-26T15:00:00.003+08:00

hello thurday(:
lovely thursday.
at least till now everything is smooth and good.
prolly cos i had 11 hours of sleep ytd.
yes i slept at 9:30pm and it was a instant total KO for me.
and i am feeling sooo good today! yay-ness(:

the sad part. my eyebags are still there. maybe it either due to insufficient sleep or just like wat kelvinlow says. its because my body clock cant adapt to my new wake up and sleeping time hence the puffiness of my eyes. how sad is that. i cant adapt to my own time change either. totally bad. ):

was chatting with jamie and anne on msn and guess we'll have a meet up somewhere mid of next week(: cant wait. its been so long since i last catch up with them or rather bitch with them. hahaa miss ya girls very much. esp. dbl O-ings. LOLS(:

book the BKK airfares from jetstar last week(: so i'm goin shopping shopping and MORE SHOPPING!! beware my love, i'm sure you'll be fitter when we get back cos you are soo gonna carry all my shopping stuff for me! HAHAHAA(:

okays, dinner date later with EY.R(: hope it'll be nice. well definately will be esp. when the gossip girl *which happens to be me* comes around with all the juicy news! swweeeee(:

signing off with lotsa love(: and i'm happy ESP. WHEN ALL THE BITCHES COME FALLING DOWN!! *three cheers for that* and yes keep pretending alright MOTHERFA*KER(:

I am like a falling star who has finally found her place next to another in a lovely constellation, where we will sparkle in the heavens forever(:

I still miss you babylove...

i love la.mocha-ing

2009-03-23T10:21:00.004+08:00

i think i have fell in love with mocha freppee.
seriously addictive(:

VENUE: AMK MACDONALDS
PRESENT: MELLY, BUNBUN, KAREN, JOE, RYAN, PEARLYN, JAMES, DILIN
TIME: 10:30PM TILL LATE 2:30AM

cant believe that we can actually sit there for 4 freaking hours just talking and talking non stop. LOLS(: and i order my ever favourite MOCHA FREPPE(: i'm loving it.

and here goes for 8 packs of fries. MOUNTAINOUS okay. but still cant be compared to the days after chinablack hahaha. so history.

ryan fetch us home and i told bunbun that i wanna watch the SCV chinese movie before i sleep. it was like almost 4am when we are home and i was totally KO. bunbun was soo happy cos i finally fell asleep before he does. yeaa usually he KO before i do. EVERYTIME.

okays. gonna go watch the STREET FIGHTER: CHUN LI show later on after work at causeway with bunbun, uncle winkle james and cai niao ryan. LOLS(: hope it wont be a stupid show. guess it wont be as stupid as dargonball. hahaaa totally dun understand wats with the 7 BALLS man. lame+stupidity.

well another hour to gooooooooooo!

P.S: I NEEDA MONEY FOR MY PET SOCIETY): totally broke. please send me LOTSA gifts okay everyone(:

lotsa love and huggies.

my days flew.

2009-03-21T22:00:00.003+08:00

time flew past just like that.

and so i have TONS of photos for uploading. too many guess i'll only upload partial since most of them can be found in my facebook(:

well so where should i start. okay backtracking... from last thursday.

LAST THURSDAY DBL O WITH DAPH MELTEE BUNNY AND CO.

well as we all know dbl O on thursday is RNB ladies night. THEREFORE its like always 95% PACKED with "chocolates". initially i tot tat it wont be so bad since i used to go dbl O on thursday as well like about 3-4 years ago(okay thats like super long ago. gossh time really flew like nobody's biz can) with jamie. BUT TIME FLEW TIME CHANGES. it really not the same can. i was like "woah okay fine. i'll TRY to have fun" but i really cant. gosh i think i only like stayed in the club for like 2 hour plus and i cant take it anymore.

sorry daph that i got to go first. cant take it esp when the dancefloor is like shite. and yes REBEL IS STILL THE BEST(: hahahaa.

FRIDAY DBL O BUNNY AND CO. SOMEBODY'S BDAY(:

yes i went dbl O AGAIN the next day. its supposed to be hongwen or is it hanwen bday. cant really catch him name. well sure it was a DRAMA RAMA night for me. first i saw MY BABE JAMIE there(: its been so long tat i last seen her and of cos we started to bitch for a while. and den i saw JESTER TAN there too. well see all the pple who made a great impact in my life HAPPENS TO APPEAR ALL AT THE SAME TIME AND AT THE SAME PLACE. DBL O. well and of cos there are things which happen and its was kinda dramatic seriously. anyway quite enjoyed but was super busy cos i got to be there and here nand i'm like running everywhere. and the night ended with bunny half dead half drunk. and i hate it. *gooshh*
and to you.

thanks for the last....

SATURDAY POPEYES EAST COAST.

the plan supposed to be the NIGHT SAFARI after popEYES but due to the rain and timing, it was CANCELLED): joe came over with bunny to pick me up and later on karen to the SINGAPORE FLYER and eat POPEYES. well tot of taking the flyer too since none of us has taken it before but TIMING TIMING! too late. after we finish, it was too late for anything. and either do we wanna drink or club. hang around for a little while and took pictures at a super small garden near the flyer(: and we went to romantic at the river next to the sgflyer.

and we headed to east coast MAC to la mocha freppppeee(: and i caught this doll with only 1BUCK! pro rite. HOHOHOHOHO(:

SUNDAY WAS A STAY AT HOME REST AND PREPARING FOR WORK TMR DAY.

i know its boring shite.

okay den moving on to this week. monday tuesday nothing much. still trying to get the hang of waking up freaking early with not enough sleep and look like shite when i reach office. everyday is just like a SUPER BAD HAIR DAY for me can. seriously i think i needa trim my hair already with all the ends flying and fighting each other. i just hate my hair NOW. esp. my fringe. soo eeeee can.

WEDNESDAY PHUTURE 12TH ELEMENTS WHITE BAR. CHA AND CO. BUNNY AND CO.

okay happenings(: and finally bunny CAME OVER MY HOUSE FOR DINNER WITH MOM. LOLS(: and yes he got "interviewed". my mom and i cant stand him. SO SHY CAN. HAHAHAAA. dinnered showered and CHACHA came to pick me up at 8:30 for PHUTURING(: after we got the bloody farking long queue chop, bunny and i headed down to BQ to meet up with JOE AND CO. and we seriously walk all the way there can.

to agnes: seriously it damn far can. hahaha. cant imagine you always walk al the way from CQ down to ZOUK. gooosshhhh you're fit(:

on the way we had LONG JOHN(: cos bunny to shy during dinner at my place he hardly touch any food.

went down to 12th ELEMENTS (i seriously hate that place) to meet them up and i saw you BLOODLY FARKING BITCH WITH A CHICKEN FACE. YES YOU THE ONE WHO CAME DOWN FOR INTERVIEW. AND PLEASE DUN GIVE ME THOSE FARK UP LOOK COS YOU ARE SO GONNA SERVE ME THE NEXT TIME I GO DOWN but well only provided if you get the job. and I JOLLY WELL KNOW TAT YOU WILL READ MY BLOG FUGLYING MOTHERFARKER. WELL HOPE YOU ENJOY READING DEN(: anyway i just felt sad for you. and i'm so sorry to make someone feels like you are just like a little sister to him. WATEVER IT IS YOU ARE JUST FARKUP THATS WHY. AND YEA LASTLY STOP ACTING LIKE A GOODIE GOOD CHURCHGIRL WHEN YOU ARE NOT. watever it is, please get a life stop acting oh-so-miserable or wat so ever sickening you know who you are.

okay enough. lets drop the BIRD LOOKING face and move on. well. opened a bottle at 12th element but only went over to WHITE BAR to drink first. and i challange bunny to POOL! yes i won PROUDLY. wahahhahaaa.

headed back to phuture at 12:30am. and it was SUPER PACK. its like crazy packed one of the worst ever LADIES NIGHT I WENT. goooshhh hardly moved. ):
went back to BQ at 3am to finish up the bottle we open at 12th elements. and james dilin francis all was quite gone already. HAHAHA. and yes i saw a very "manly" girl there too. really seriously scares the shite out of me okay.
went home at 6:30am. rested for 1 hour and headed to work.
COS I'M A SUPERGIRL(:

bought this DKNY ring(: loving it to the fullest. nice(: the salesperson said that cos DKNY dun usually comes out with jewelly so its sort of like "limited" stocks. yahhhhnessssss(:

okay gonnna head out now to AMK MAC with ryan, pearlyn, james, joe, karen, dilin and bunny for la my mocha freppppeee and mountainous fries(:

i'm soooo going to BKK again on 13th april to 22 april (: weeeee. where the endless shopppping starts again. wahahahhahahahaa.

quiz on me.

2009-03-17T15:36:00.004+08:00

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education:

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

Here is the analysis:
You've got great self-confidence and you're full of charm. Most guys who get to know you will be attracted to you. You are far from sweet and proper; your intriguing personality fascinates them. Most guys find it easy to fall for a girl like you.

You don't really care about other people's feelings. You do things the way you want and usually think only about yourself. You are easy-going and love to have fun, but you can be irresponsible as well. You are not keen on serious discussions because they can make you remember that life isn't always about parties.

You are a bright, cheerful and bubbly person. You are thoughtful and considerate, and like to have fun. Everybody feels comfortable around you because of your pleasant nature. When you walk into a room, people's eyes are likely to be drawn to you because of your charm.
Guys see you as being a thinker and a careful person. They will be really attracted to this quality in you, but you need to learn to speak your mind, otherwise people will find you too shy and quiet. Learn to relax and lighten up--it's okay to have fun sometimes. When you learn to develop your fun-loving side, guys are going to flock to your side.

Your boyfriend believes that you are a strong and independent person. Your confidence and cheerfulness make you an attractive person to be around, but sometimes you need to pay more attention to what other people, including your boyfriend, are thinking.

You desire a love that will last forever. You are quite serious about finding this type of love, and that's why you think carefully about the men that you meet before deciding whether you could really love them. You don't just develop a crush on someone overnight: you look at a person's personality and other aspects of their life before deciding to form an attachment. If a guy doesn't meet your expectations, you would rather be alone. Your love has to be perfect. Be careful though, you could be missing out on some worthy relationships because your standards are so high.

so this is true about me. i wonder.

but maybe not really all are true hahahahaha.

and yes to PREFECT LOVE(:

work weee(:

2009-03-10T14:39:00.002+08:00

currently in the office now.
doing nothing. hahaha.

well wat can i say this is SO much better den the previous job i had. and of cos with LESS SPYING going on and MOST IMPORTANTLY LESS BACKSTABBING.

its so different working with french pple. they are friendly, nice, warm and all(: and best of all i got my own little corner.

wanna know wat i am working as rite. simple.
my job is like a "PA" to this very cute french guy and i even went shopping for him on my first day of work cos he wanna buy some stuff and my new computer wasnt here yet. yepp nice boss to work with indeed(: plus he is always only like half day in the office therefore leaving me with nth much to do. hahaha.

so far so good for now. guess i am gonna love this job much. and i am not gonna quit anytime cos i got my saving plan coming up for something special(:

agnes and chacha jioed me to PHUTURING TMR! well. maybe maybe not. most prolly MAYBE YES. LOLS(:

PLEASE DON'T STOP THE MUSIC *CLAP CLAP CLAP*

mommy is in london enjoying herself now): she is going paris toooo. and R promise to bring me(:

is this a fantasy or is this a reality. i really wonder.

my love for weekend(:

2009-03-03T00:08:00.006+08:00

the cutest of mine(:

its beeen so long since i last took photo with my darling(: miss her so much and to think tat i sort of ignored her for the whole of last week. super bad. but still I LOVE MY BAILEY GIRL(:

went for a interview at some french compy. went quite well tho but still depends. and i got driving on tuesday and friday. OMG. the instructor is seriously killing me with all the rules on the road. why cant he just leave me alone and let me DRIVE. shite.

anyway FINALLY daph's exams are so OVER! weeeee. and we headed to REBEL on saturday.

cant even rmb when all this tripping photos were taken. anyway went down to clakequay with R and met daph there and it was freaking raining. super spoil mood can. we got to walk in the rain but it aint really heavy tho. went to rebel to got CHOP first and the doorbastard damn KPO can ask us why we go in so early why R dun wanna go in blar blar. like HELLO MIND UR OWN BIZ OKAY. anyway it was damn early like only 9 plus and we headed to boatquay to clear the bottle first. me n daph din drink tho it was R n peeps who finish up and it was really fun plus funny cos of J's singing like wth. hahaha. but all was good(: till about 11 plus we headed back to rebel and thats wen all the happenings started! wooooooooo! superbnight.

we club till closed at 430 and went to look for the rest and daph headed home while i headed back boatquay with the rest to chill and cool off. super shagged plus tired. and cabbed home at 6am in the morning.

saw ELOYS bestie at AMK HUB! can you imagine its like we have been always wanting to meet up with plans after plans with non succeed and we can just bump into each other like tat. LOLS(:

best part. both our parents went overseas to play GOLF together(: tats how close we are. hahahaa. i miss ya babe. promise clubbing sooon okay.

and this is R(:

PHUTURING ON WED WITH AGNES BABE! GOSSHHHH.

please give me some time okay love(:

a week flew pass.

2009-03-02T12:58:00.002+08:00

its been a week.
a really HAPPY WEEK for me (:

and its been a long weeeekend
a HAPPENING WEEKEND for me(:

off to the interview sooon.
and movie after that.
wish me luck!

okays i know.
shall upload photos sooon yepp!
prolly tmr since i only got driving ons tmr(:

love ya all.
hugs are all over the world tonight.

thank you for everything.

最熟悉的陌生人

2009-02-25T16:17:00.001+08:00

还记得吗窗外那被月光染亮的海洋
你还记得吗是爱让彼此把夜点亮
为何后来我们用沉默取代依赖
曾经朗朗星空
渐渐阴霾

心碎离开转身回到最初荒凉里等待
为了寂寞是否找个人填心中空白
我们变成了世上最熟悉的陌生人
今后各自曲折各自悲哀

只怪我们爱得那么汹涌
爱得那么深
于是梦醒了搁浅了沉默了挥手了
却回不了神
如果当初在交会时能忍住了激动的灵魂
也许今夜我不会让自己在思念里沉沦

temptations never FAILS.

2009-02-21T15:50:00.006+08:00

AS USUAL ALL WEDNESDAY.

PHUTURING WITH MY BABES(:

but this time round there will only be 3 of us.

melly tats me.

agnes babe.

and pretty farrah(:

and saw robin there too.

agnes'b with robinhood. LOLS(:

and farrah with her brother derick.

the long lost schoolmates! and someone cant stop talking about(:

met agnes at 10:30 and i got my very friendly "zoukie" to bring us in phuture. haha just a wave and we're in(: thanks alv! farrah came with her brother later on and she was busy busy running in between mambo and phuture. haha.

well as usual we club till club closed. decided to SPICE for supper. and me agnes robin brand*sry i totally forgot how to spell ur name* and the rest were sitting at the roadside oppsite zouk waiting for farrah and her brother for like 30 mins how unglam was tat can LOLS(: after all the dragging and stuff we headed down to SPICE and i saw CK there with his mates from dbl O. we were all sure super shagged and tired. prac like no mood n strength to eat. haha. after suppering, headed home and we all went off at 530am. reached home at 6am and i waited till 7am to go breakfast with my mom. and after tat i was competely knockout. like totally.

friday 20feb09

met my DAPHNE girl to town for lala-ing and bitchng. WOOO. she is the best can always ther for me thanks lotsa babe tho i kept complainting about certain things and kept repeating certain stuff hahaha. love ya lotsa lotsa(:

and yes we took PRINTS! how old school is that can. i used to take those with CHACHA all the time! hahaha and prolly the last time i took was with jestertan. oh well(: happy memories tat is.

went to far east and after to wheelock for the SAKAE buffet(: and daphne had 4 GLASSES of lemonade. prolly she is filled with water more den sushi. haha(:

after the buffet, we hang around and went to cine and heeren to look for her friends who is working there. and we totally just chilled the whole afternoon and evening away.

and in the night we just went coffee bean at paragon sit and start bitching, crapping, planning and listening to songs from our mp3s. this feels really good. esp with GREAT GIRLFRIENDS(:

and for now,

temptations never FAILS. (:

finally final theory wee(:

2009-02-18T00:08:00.004+08:00

FINALLY I BOOK MY FINAL THEORY(:

and it happens to be on the same day for JL's TP too! haha wish us both luck yepp(: and i even book my first private driving lesson too! it'll be on monday 23/02 2pm at yiochukang mrt. weee. the instructor told me i'll prolly get my lic in 2 months time before my PDL expires on 15th may. and ya i dun wanna pay another freaking 25bucks for my PDL. waste of money. so i got to rush all my lessons now. prolly 3 lessons per week or sth and i think i am gonna be broke cos i am gonna pay everything myself. but still i cant wait for my lic! cant wait for my car... LOLS(:

was really happy tat i FINALLY make my way down to SSDC so i jioed my big brother kelv for a crapping dinner haha okay i just feel really happy tat i like really finally lar. okay enough said(:

HAPPY GIRL(: hahaha superly.

i dunno wats with all the 'V' post in my photos lar just realised too. prolly just showing off my nails before they start to chip off. ya i know vain girl rite.

went kayu for selegie tau hua. kinda weird rite. LOLS(: selegie at kayu haha. well anyway just chilling, eating glass jelly + tau hua and super crapping about all the stupid and lame stuff tat we can actually think and talk about. almost ridiculous stuff. seriously stupid OKAY(: well shall not go into details.

din stay till too late tho. and oh ya i found a part time job(: but i dunno if i should take up now well i just needa job now to cover the fees for my driving! so mayb i should. but its gonna be almost everydae tat i got to work. prolly just work a month or so till i pass all my lessons. still considering. should or should not. hmmm.

got no idea when this was taken prolly accidently press or sth. but its nice so posted! haha. guess i gonna turn in early tonight already tho its like 12:30am now. i dun wanna always sleep so late. i just wanna nice and good from now on. more time to be serious and less time for play(:

and most imptly for now. MY DRIVING(:

all well ends well(:

my valentine's 09 lovelove.

2009-02-16T17:52:00.005+08:00

MY '09 VALENTINE'S(:

wore my new dress cos i am going out with my real HOT DATE. really excited about it cos its been so long since i last saw her(: and tonight its gonna be so damn happening definately. haha.

and tata! my HOT date DAPHNE!!

and DESIREE(:

met at 8pm wisma and we all headed down to CQ(: and was lost cos we totally got no idea where REBEL was hahaha. and we are so gonna hate all the couples who are gonna club there can! how can couples celebrate valentine's in the club. they should be off to somewhere romantic or sth. finally found REBEL at like 10pm and we headed in. surprisingly, it was

EMPTY! we were like prolly the 3rd group in. omg..

so we decided to head to liang court mac cos i was super hungry i only like ate half a bowl of maggie tat day. desiree and dhini din wanna eat and wanna head to zouk while me n dap go eat at mac and so we decided to meet up after an hour later(: and we had out romantic mac dinner at the busstop outside cos it was too cold in the mall din wanna sit in. haha.

and as expected by dap, des and dhini din came back cos des was wasted at zouk before 12am! hahaa totally gone can. so only left me and dap to hit REBEL for the first time. and for the first time i feel really good and was really high and i really had fun! thanks dap(: and it'll be our secret to it okay hahaa. and totally cant believe tat we rejected 8 guys tat night. its like prolly the most time i rejected soo many guys in a night after so long. hmm. REBEL is fun and we are definately gonna hit it again! weeee. and we were good girls only had ORANGE JUICE TAT NIGHT! haha. dap's a good girl and she is so like me cos both of us cant drink haha and we wont force ourself too(: love her so much kay.

oh ya and i changed my heels with dap she like totally in pain in her 5" Aldo so i decided tat mayb i can try dancing in a 5" heels and seriously it aint easy kay! i was like super tall and it was really kinda hard to balance so i got to grab onto the pole most of the time. lols dap say ya pole dancing. haha but i totally wasnt. i was laughing most of the time due to some stupid nonsense pple were doing there.

club closed at 4:30am. lights on and off we goo. decided to go get some drinks to cool putself down and wait for 6am to avoid midnight charges. went 7-11 and got rose and milk tea and we sat and totally crap about wat happen in the club(:

and yes we are like super tired and sweaty. haha imagine its like almost 5-6hours on the dancefloor nonstop.

and i was still abit not over and sleepy. dap was sleepy too. and suddenly something just pop into my mind which i dun wanna think about. and tat end my sweet valentine's. okay so lazy to really go into details now.

cos someone told me tat i was UGLY!

well you can stop trying to MEAN and if you thinks tat i am ugly den i only got one thing to tell you...

IF YOU THINKS THAT I AM UGLY, OTHERS DON'T. AND IF YOU DON'T APPRECIATE ME,

WELL OTHERS WILL.

and i already tried my very best cos i don't want regrets. and if you think by running away helps den run forever cos it wil still comes back in the end.

thanks for letting me know how much i meant to you now. and you should thanks your friends for letting me believe wat they told me.

cant believe that you're the one. who held me up and pull me down.

with my cha(:

2009-02-12T22:02:00.011+08:00

these few days or rather the past 3 days after i came back, wasnt really feeling good and all so i turn to my best comfort which is my CHACHA(: she's always the best. always ready to hear me out tho i can repeatedly say many many times over and over again why i am unhappy. and i always feels better after telling her many many times. haha.

yesterday night was ladies night and i went phuturing(: lotsa happening there i must say. some good and some bad. well overall i was a really happy girl cos i saw you.(: already got a feeling tat i'll see you there even before i went down and i really did. its so fated(:

and yesterday was dyan's birthday party there and there was supposed to be a theme ROCKROCKBABY! and i know i am not tat rock and i dun have anything tat is rock so i just dress in black hopefully it'll somehow pull it off. and i dun normally wear dresses to club its quite troublesome but oh well once a while wont kill i guess.

my pretty pretty 6 bucks nails! hahaha. so happy(: weee. nice right. LOLS(:

went over to dyan's place near zouk and drank first. drank some and wasnt feeling good already. haha. chacha almost dozed off too. it was fun tho(:

see the diff chacha is sooo rocking and i am like ahhh. watever.

yeaa baby the rocker style. haha(: this is so funny. should ask remus along the real rocker huh.

and agnes babe(: love her specs can so super cute(:

headed back to phuture at around 12:30am and everybody was quite high already. den i saw you at the back bar(: well i was really happy to see you. and everything seems to be going well except tat you look FITTER now haha. still i must say it was really good, great to see you again(: and your friends told me stuff which i dunno whether its true. but haha happy to hear wat they have to say cos its kinda sweet. and they are definately great friends you have, well its nice knowing them too yepp(:

its been so long that i last...

emmanuel and guys were there too(: well he's flying off back to aussie today and really happy to know tat he's doing well. okay shall see ya sooon after you got back yepp! have fun(:

went back after closing. reach home at 5am. super shagged. showered and watched HEROES season 2 and saw you again(: online. wanted to wait till 7am to go have breakfast with my mom but guess i couldnt stand it. esp when the sun shines so brightly. felt like i was gonna melt anytime. haha.

on tuesday, stayed over chacha house the previous night and got up like in the noon. we super slack, laze, crap till 2pm before headed to 888 for our brunch. after we finished, went down to amk hub cos chacha was supposed to meet merelda there to study at nebo. and at nebo we played boardgames while merelda studied(: and its super funny!

we played JENGA. and it was darn scary cos when the blocks fell they always flew all over the tables and sometimes missing, laying somewhere on the floor.

and ths is the the highest we ever went playing jenga. its super unstable okay. even had to hold our breathe while taking out the block. haha.

after we got tired of picking and picking the blocks tat flew all over we played this really stupid game. HEDBANZ FOR KIDS! ya for kids haha. damn funny can. esp the questions being asked. random plus stupidity.

yes i am a pig. question asked:

me: ehh am i a food?

cha: ya after you die.

me: wth! wat kinda answer is tat!

cha i am a sandwich question asked:

cha: am i a food? wat colour am i?

me: ya you are definately a food and have manymany colours and sometimes you can pick and choose the colours you like! hahaha

cha: -.-" fark you.

hahaa see see it can be damn lame lar. and most of the time we were laughing like crazy. well had a great time playing till 6pm before i headed to chomp chomp for my lala dinner treat(:

on monday my mood wasnt really good. and so i randomly asked chacha out for ktv and she happened to be able to make it(: really glad tat she is able to accompany me so last minute.

all set and ready to go. met chacha at woodlands for partyworld. and we sang for 4 hours. 6pm-10pm.

and she sang her all time favourite HOKKIEN SONG! weewee* hahahaa i seriously dunno how to sing tat hokkien song lar. damn chim. and she asked me to learn so tat we can sing together. hahaha. i try okay lols(:

and she finished all the tidbits tat were served.

she's so superly cute rite. hahaha best cussie i could ever have(: and after 4 hours of emoemo songs, we were super tired. plus both of us actually had sore throat and it was kinda bad till we could hardly talk. but oh well i felt good after tat tho.

we walked home from civic plaza and stop at 888 for supper. its was a cool and windy night so the walk was nice plus chacha told me tat its supposed to be chinese valentine's day tat night and the moon is the roundest at 10:51pm.

reached chacha place at almost 12 midnight. and tata her classic hokkien mee hat again! LOLS.

remus was home so i talk to him about some stuff and he actually told me things which have never crossed my mind before and i believe watever he told me was logical and true. so i guess if somethings nv happens, den the other party wont feel the pain at all and till tat thing really do happens, the other party will feel the pain n regret for neglecting or trys to withhold from ur own feelings. well guess different person have different set of thinkings. so maybe this is how we all ended up in different situations.

i really dun wish to regret but there's nothing much i can do anymore.but i am glad cos it seems like you are able to move on. okay totally confused over this now.

melly(:

2009-02-09T17:04:00.003+08:00

to be it. let it be.

back with memories.

2009-02-09T01:10:00.004+08:00

anyong anyong(: i am back.

it was SUPPOSED to be a relax and layback trip BUT it wasnt going so well when i reached there.

will blog about the trip on a later post. just wanna pour all my EMOEMO NOW. really not feeling good at this moment cos first of all I SAW SOMETHING WHICH I REALLY DIN WISH TO SEE. okay fine.

secondly, TOO MUCH FLASH BACK FROM THE TRIP. EVERYTHING EVERYWHERE EVERY US. maybe it was a mistake to go places where we spent part of our happiest moment before.

thirdly, I AM SUPER SICK. sore throat, fever, cough. enough said.

i dun wish to say and i dun wanna talk about this anymore. prolly this shall be the last time i shall and i will pour everything out.

thinking back on this past one and a half year relationship of babylove. well it was a really rollercoaster one i must say. when we are happy and loving we really are. and when we are fighting over and stuff and all we can really be mad at each other and even not considering each other feelings. but well i guess these are just some parts of a relationship.

when in a quarrel, which couple will NOT actually use "break up" as a reason to pissed the other party off? i believe everyone has does this before and of cos i dun deny dat i have done this before too. but as i say its always an act of impulse when someone uses "break up" in a quarrel and tho at times when i say tat, i had nv meant it at any point of time. and in the end i will still want to go back into your arms always. i noe it very clearly myself tat its wrong and not healthy to always stunt this and of cos i have tried not to say tat anymore. till the last time when i got the hint and tats when everything has really come to an end. and still you should noe tat i have never meant wat i said.

okay enough of sad ending. i just wanna say about the happiest moment tat happened to us(:

i still rememeber when i first saw you. it was just a causal "hi and bye" and prolly somehow we did have a little interest but we did exchange contacts or anything. maybe fate will let us meet again and yes i finally saw you again at the same place one week later and this time we played silly games and dared each other in ways which somehow hit the chemistry between us. okay it was the hug. the first dared hug from you tat send sparks flying. and tats how it all started. babylove<3

there was a a period of time prolly about 6 months when we shifted into yishun together. where we painted the whole house together, went ikea to choose and bought furnitures together, down to gaincity to select electronics together, and we were so eager to stay together becos it will just be the two of us in our lovenest. i will be washing all ur clothes and waiting for you to come home from work and do silly stuff for you like massaging, facial and watch dvds together with you plus my all time favourite -squeezing pimples for you and waking you up everyday at 5:30am. over the weekends we will head back to ur mom's place and mahjong together(:

still remember when there was also a period of time you were suddenly so crazy over bowling tat i even bought a bowling set for you. and i swear i had NEVER done sooo much for any guy in my life before. seriously i felt so attached too attached tat i tot we will never part in any ways. i was too confident in our relationship tat i tot will last forever.

and another happiest moment tat ever happened was our trip to thailand together(: and it was a birthday treat from you to me. it was truly my first trip overseas with my bf and altho at times during the trip we did somehow quarrel and stuff, it always ended up with a sweet hug and kiss from you. i remembered we went to the themepark and you even won a teddy froggie for me. and reason for me to choose a frog you should know why. till now i still have the photo of us taken with the baby tiger cub and the "kangaroo-look-alike" animal from the safari zoo and all it was really an unforgetable trip.

and rest of the happy times we know ourselves. tho i feel like its actually kinda useless to recall all these memories back anymore but well these are just some stuff tat did went throu my mind when i was in bangkok. happy memories only. never remember about the bad ones.

i know tat there are certain stuff which actually went wrong half way here and there but well aint couples suppose to solve it together. aint it suppose to strengthen the relationship after we overcome it? and no matter wat went wrong before you know tat i always forgive you. *and you should know wat tho i know you hate me for saying this all the time* and reason why i still forgive you its bcos i love you and i believe tat not everyone can actually forgive and accept it. well i am one who actually does.

i know tat our relationship wasnt really a healthy one cos we have too much restrictions between us and we din compromise well enough. prolly we are just afraid to lose one another and thats when all the restrictions lying comes about. well this is really a good lesson learnt for me. and yes i might be selfish but who is not towards your love one. well and tat will be me in the past for now i know how impt it is to balance up both relationships, friends and freedom. and most most imptly, its the trust. and trust is fragil. very.

for the past few months i have been trying hard very very hard to move on with my life and keeping myself to myself. seeing you enjoying with ur friends and all i was really happy for you. till my worst nightmare happened. and it is so gonna happen very soon i know. lest worry tat i will actually go and bother you like wat i did the last time calling you up and stuff, bothering you with questions and all. cos i know it cant be force and i dun wish to force you or force myself. prolly all your friends will encourage you to move on too i know. but dun worry watever you told me will always be kept as a secret. i wont tell.

okay its 4:15am now and its SUPPOSED just another 10 days if you still rememeber. well guess i shall just stop all my msging of telling you how much i still miss you and stuff. all these will only be kept within myself from now on. thanks for everything. thanks for the memories.

prolly the only memories i left with you are all in your sony hphone.

no reason to stay is the only reason to go.

and let fate lead its way.

flying off a jetplane tmr (:

2009-02-04T19:55:00.006+08:00

GOODBYE MY DEAR FRIENDS AND YOU (:
COS I'LL BE FLYING OFF IN A JETPLANE TMR.

its gonna be a OMG so early flight can. flying off at 8am meaning i have to be at the airport latest by 630am to check in and best of all I HAVEN EVEN START PACKING YET! actually i din really intent to pack anything either prolly just a few tshirts and shorts and be wearing slippers there. relax relax trip (: and i'll only be back on sunday night. and best of all I AM HAVING COLD + FLU + COUGH + SORE THOART NOW! woah multiple smack ): *sobsob*

everybody is asking me to get stuff for them and the best request is EUG!=
EUG - "ehh buy me a volleyball court back can"
ME: - "wth. i buy you nylon string lar. its the same okay(: LOLS"

FEL is funny too ask me to buy anything tat can be wore on the hand neck or head? LOLS(: sounds more like SM stuff can LMAF(:
and the same o'same. CHACHA and rest = CLOTHES AND MORE CLOTHES.

and here's a few me just in case you miss me so(:

really dun understand why the stupid eyebags still there. prolly bcos mommy has been waking me up this few days damn early like 7am to go have breakfast with her. OMG. so sad ): its fugly.

and this will always be my love(: thanks for everything. *huggs* <3

well this will be only be my second trip to BKK. surprising rite. LOLS. the first was my birthday treat 2 years back from jestertan(: and i was really happy cos it was like my first time going overseas with my bf and all(: oh well. those were really great and happy memories i must say esp when he caught the froggie dollie for me at the themepark! awww so sweet rite(: okay enough sweetness already.

ahh cant bring my camera there just found out my charger is with elise. OMG blame myself for being so lazy to go collect it from her. so i can only survive on my HP camera den oh well bad bad. anyway guess there wont be time to take photos too cos i will be busy eating TOMYAM and SHOPPPING(:

sigh am so gonna start work after coming back already tho i haven found one yet but yes i will have to hunt for one really soooon. and i really dun understand one thing and it has been lingering on my mind for the pass week already and i was kinda bother by it.

i really dun understand WHY why lie to me. you should know how much i care. liar.

okay got to go start packing stuff and all(: have a great weekend everyone! weee.

and yes jeremylee you owe me my CYSTRAL JADE LA MIAN TREAT(: weee. haaa. and prolly mahjonging session with CHACHA soon kay. shhh. we play small small lar. LOLS(:

sinner.

2009-02-02T01:00:00.002+08:00

OH GOD PLEASE FORGIVE ME I'M SO GONNA BE A SINNER TMR ):

i just feel super lost rite now. saw things which i din wanna see. predict things which i hate to predict. and i just feel depressss ): *boohoo*
*oh oh oh.. why you have to go away from home. me love.*

today went to DL's colleauge's baby full month party. and its a BABYGIRL! so damn cute lar. but i din get to take a photo cos there was tooo many pple well maybe next time when the BABYGIRL is one year old. LOLS (: and i saw JEREMY LEE there too! CHACHA dun be jealous kay. hahaha. took me sooo long to notice who exactly he was.

oohhh my baby. i miss you so): really super super regretted and i'm sorry i shouldnt have done wat i did. i'm really sorry.

oh well friday night went dbl O with jamie. its been so long since i last saw her and she's getting really pretty(: and i was kinda lazy to really go doll up myself tat night. felt kinda crappy, last minute, and still unwell *vomitting and headache*. and as you can see my damn *sickkening sian* face):

i think i really look sick can. so pale so pale. hais. who can help me recover):

this is so sad i think my whole post sound sad except for the baby's first month party.

okay i shall look forward to my bangkok trip this coming thursday(: weee* okay at least i'm trying to be happy now can. seriously i am kinda stuck STUCK not here nor there.

somebody save me...*

unwell ):

2009-01-29T16:40:00.003+08:00

haven been really feeling well this few days ):
all the vomitting and headaches. really felt like shite can. so sad so miserable i had to cry myself to sleep twice already okay. well maybe its partly bcos of other reasons too.

anyway din really celebrate CNY too. was home most off the time except for mahjonging of cos(: and again i went phuturing and butter fact with anges, dyan and lynette ytd night. wasnt tat fun tho and was super shagged instead. well tons of happenings, all the fightings and vomitting going on wth. damn gross lar.

suppose to meet them at 8:15pm which was super early can. too early i think. so i just cam-whored. as usual.

was choosing between wearing either the black or white top. well i went ahead with the white top instead since its new. LOLS. will wait till anges upload more photos before i can load yepp.

i darn smoking now can tho i only smoke only wen i go club but now i feel tat seriously its really awful can. i am so gonna quit smoking. I PROMISE. and i am gonna so cut down on clubbing too. too many despos out there. its getting irritating seriously. omg.

okay i feel like vomitting again. shite. ):

partyed(:

2009-01-22T19:21:00.005+08:00

cause its a LADIES NIGHT! weeee(:

before the party starts, went to CCK for my pre CNY reunion dinner with my mom's side(: and before before i went for the dinner i did my mani and pedicure with mommy at amk inclusive of the spa treatment. happy(:

oh well reached CCK only at 7pm and dinner was served at 7:30pm. me and CHACHA ate like super fast can. in 15 mins we finish our dinner reason being cos CHACHA got to go back hougang to fetch her friend and we dun wanna reach zouk too late. targeted time was to reach like at 8:30pm. i know its super damn kaisu can. LOLS(:

well we reached phuture at almost 9:30pm and the queue was long but moving fast. queue for only like 20 mins and we are in(:

merelda and me(:

well after we all checked in to phuture with somemore of CHACHA's friends (total i guess almost 10 of us), we all headed to butter fact for drinks. we walked and i feels tat it was kinda far can. but oh well. companies all the way so it was a good walk by the river(: LOLS.

the typical vodka cranberry and vodka orange at butter fact. din really like butter prolly due to the crowd and music. kinda sucky to me. oh well, hang around till almost 1am before we headed back to phuture again(: and emm, jason, jon, jer, xh, ray, bc was there with friends too. it was like super alot of pple ytd night.

finished partying till closed. send dyan home and CHACHA, merelda fetch me home. showered and was watching desp housewife till like 6:30am. straight before i wanna rest before the break of dawn, emm called and we talk like till 10am. and yes we were crapping with super some old school plus cold jokes. LOLS. the man tou char sau bao. best. hahaha.

last saturday.
headed down to butter factory with dap and friends(: its been so long since i last seen her and it was like a super last min thing. it was my first time going butter fact and i heard tat they are gonna shift so wth just go and see see look look yepp. reached town to meet up with dap at 10:30pm and cabbed down.

yeap dapdap and me(:

got to know something which i never did know cos i was nv told and i really felt sad about it esp knowing tat you dun even want my help. please you should know how much i really do care about you. nonetheless no worries i will only keep what you said all to myself i promise. you are never gonna be alone. and i will be here... to standby you always.

it's been so looong.

2009-01-13T15:42:00.008+08:00

I AM NOT IGNORING YOU BLOGGIE (:

okay i got the weirdest dream last night.

I DREAMT TAT ALL MY FRIENDS ARE BECOMING LESBIANS AND GAYS! OMG. x:

*sorry* LOLS.

aint it weird. hahaa. of cos it was a nightmare and i cant really rmb most part of the dream hmmm... anyway its just a dream rite (:

last wednesday.

met up with EY and RAY for dinner at ICB yet again. (:

yepp i cut my fringe MYSELF. hahaa tho it din really turn out to be good but okay FRINGE GROW FAST RITE (: reached somerset ICB at 7pm and lucky for us we got a place upstairs. ordered drink for happy hour and pizza plus their so tasty chicken winggs. and of cos the whole purpose of the meet up - BITCHING. (: LOLS.

waitress said this is new. well turn out its not so bad. but petty cos i dun like beer. i dun drink beer. too much foam. so i like only had half a bottle i think. as usual after 8, the place was super super crowded and noisy. barely can hear myself toking.

yepp the thin crust pizza (: nicee. and thanks RAY for the treat hahaa since you are the only one left working. LOLS. love the tomatoes and prawns on it. FRESH.

ICE COLD BEER - SOMERSET

left ICB at around 11pm and headed down to dbl O (: yepp super last min.

met up with JON, EMM, JER, and another 2 of their friends RAY AND JASON i think. LOLS.

guess the whole night was only for 5-10 till closing at 3am and after tat headed to NANA. hmm friendly pretty thais. had fun. hahaa. reached home at almost 6am in the morning. and had conference call till like 9am. okay super duper shagged. its been so loonnggg...

friday night
had family dinner at merchant court swisshotel.

had OYSTERS CLAMS SALMONS AND FRESH PRAWNS (: weeeee. yummilious.

and thats my broither BRYSON CHEH WEI QIN (:

its kinda rare that i will actually go out with my brother unless the both of us are like super bored or got nothing better to do. i think he looks kinda weird here. hmm. prolly he us shy. LOLS.

and this is my MOMMY. (:

saturday.

went out i forgot where to buy stuff! (: my DVDS.

and there was a massive jam. lian asked me to take the dunno wat is it called *HI-5 shots"? and there you have it! LOLS.

smile ONE (:

TWO (:

THREE (:

FOUR (:

and FIVE (:

okay i know its CHILDISH!!! anyway its just for the fun of it. since the jam is moving soooo super sllloooowwww. plus i dun have enough sleeeeep. *sigh*

sunday night
brought bailey out to watch soccer! the cafe is giving discount to those who had their doggy. well can see tat bailey is a happy girl tat night (: cos it been so long since i last brought her out anywhere. and nonetheless, she is still as lazy ever. refuses to walk after awhile.

brownie oh doggy

2009-01-06T18:34:00.005+08:00

heellllloooooo.
i am so bored.
currently NOT WORKING ANYTMORE! weeee.
HAPPY (:

lets go out. randomly.

baby chihuahua came my house today. aunty karen found it somewhere(: so cute can. guess its like 6 months old only soo small.

yes bailey damn "hum" scare of baby chihuahua. LOLS. see one on each end. LOLS.

and bailey was sooo jealous.

yes i am sooo lazy to blog. oh well pictures will do den. (:

i cant pretend tat nothing ever happens.

i cant pretend tat i dun miss you.

i cant pretend not to be jealous.

i cant pretend tat i can move on.

i cant pretend.. because.

i am not a pretender.

new teeveee.end of '08

2008-12-31T11:09:00.003+08:00

HAPPY HAPPY NEW YEAR! (:

yes see my eye bags! those terrible horrible fulgy EYEBAGS ): i only had an hour to sleep on monday night and had to go CJWH for stockcounting on tuesday. blame myself blame my itcly hands. haiya.
anyway ignore those cos i got my 32" LCD TEEVEE YESTERDAY(: all thanks to WOPL for picking me den the tv up! and of cos plus the good buy. LOLS.
went funan to search for a cheap cheap DVD player too and saw a sony one within my budget so i got it.

tata my new new TEEVEE + DVD PLAYER. loving it tho its a big for my room LOLS.
ya ignore those rubbish on the selves. goona clear them to make my room look not so messy plus crowded with junkies and rubbish.

pana pana panasonic 32"LCD tv. my very own. and most imptly: I BUY WITH MY OWN MARNIE OKAY!

so so sony DVD player. wat a steal man. super cheap can.

so the TV + DVD player = 600 bucks! *ching ching* cheap cheap rite! hohohoh its even cheaper den you just buy one 32" LCD alone. weee am so happy with my buy tho its like almost half my pay gone already still in long term its worth it! now i can spend my time watching and watching my hongkie dramarama 24/7 in my own room. (: ryan say now my room looks like hotel room LOLS! ask mi go buy mini fridge somemore. wtf. hahaa.

well tats enough for my roomie already! gonna go plaza later to buy my curtains with FFR. and i END WORK EARLY TODAY! 3pm 3pm. weeee. plus fridae i am on leave! its gonna be a long weekend for me again. good. now i can get enough sleep. shagged shagged.

jessica bought this for me and elise. damn cute rite. its chocolate tho. dunno wat alcho is mine. elise says its BLACK LABEL. LOLS. super funny can. (:

whisky or BLACK LABEL anyone? hahahahaha.

its so fast how time flies pass and yet again its gonna be another year. as they say new year new start. i hope so too but will it really be a new start or is it just another normal day which will just pass in our life. to me its like not much diff tho. it seems like just another day. prolly i will just make everything tat happen into a memory. my 2008 was a bad year. prolly one of the worst. but i never did regret watever happened and in 2008 i have to lose someone once i hold so dear to my heart. well gonna keep and lock those into my 2008 memory.

dun ask me abt my NEW YEAR resolution. bcos it never happen before. never once. so its kinda pointless. LOLS. okay but prolly one thing for sure. I WANNA SAVE AND HAVE LOADS OF MARNIE MARNIE THIS YEAR! weee. for my shopping shopping chilling chilling clubbing clubbing movie movie mahjong mahjong. hahahaha. set.

ok everyone have a fun countdown to 2009 yepp! have a good year ahead! prolly i should go for a makeover too. hahahahaa. so random.

I, I don’t know why I miss you so much
Yeah I, I don’t know why I still feel your touch
You, you left me feeling high and dry
With nothing, nothing but the question why….
Yeah you, I guess you had another direction
And leaving me with nothing but a dead connection
If you call me today
I’ll say that I’m fine
But I bet you can tell by the tone of my voice
It’s just a lie
You knew what you had
You still walked away leaving me in this mess
My love for you is deep and meaningless
You, you knew what you were doing to me
And I, I guess I was too blind to see
Well you hit where it hurt and you fooled me so bad
But I’d do it again to relive what we had
Damn that’s sad
-Rooster - Deep And Meaningless -

MERRY.CHRISTMAS.2008

2008-12-29T09:32:00.007+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS!
jingle mells, jingle mells,
jingle all the way...

HOHOOHO! this is my NEW christmas dress i bought as a pressie for myself =) so loving myself rite. LOLS. well, wore this to work and guess only elise and me made the effort to dress up a little for the festive mood can. as usual everyone in office is already in the holidae mood.and finally office gave news tat we can go off early for the day at 3pm! =) tho its not really consider half dae but still i am happy =) cos i dun have to stay and be plastic. so fake. lalalaa.

and presenting here is my FIRST pressie i rec'd for this year xmas! =) esp from LBL. nicely wrapped cos its from japan okay. anyway japan always have nice nice wrappings regardings of watever thing tat is inside. cos i've been to japan I KNOW. so make a guess wats in it...

tata! its the "bai se lian ren" white chocolate biscuit =) and its nice. best part is YOU CANT FIND THIS IN SINGAPORE! hahaaha. so are you so super jealous now huh MY GIRL L.

THE EVE.

christmas eve party was held at fabian's house. met FFR at bishan before heading down. and it was super funny can. cos FFR was not updated abt the change of address (prolly bcos he hang ard with the aussie roos for too long) and we actually went to fab's old address.

*DINGDONG* pressed the bell and an angmo opened the door. damn paiseh can. so we jus go " OH MERRY CHRISTMAS! sorry wrong house." OMG!!! malu malu.. in the end we cabbed again to fab's new address. which is so damn near the old one. prolly like 5 mins ride.

reached and lemme try and recall who was there. hmmm.

fab. celest (fab's gf). joe.sarah(joe's gf). tianhuat. han. pris(han's gf). shijia. yanting. daniel. fredkong. larry. jessica(larry's gf). and siumei was there. hope i din left anyone out.

well tats a hell lots of pple and super long since i last had a gathering like tat. and i was surprise surprise when han and shijia told me tat we actually knew each other loooong along wen we were still playing gunbound. yeah tag team! LOLS. oh well they were fab's poly mates (the rest were my sec sch mates) and i only realised wen they told me. felts nice tho i'm not really close to everyone there. its was fun with the 7-up and the name games. well its was quite tough okay. and i had a few drink as forfeit. worst is after u drink and play. super blur. was kinda high but it felt good =) went home only at 5am. oh ya. WE FORGOT TO COUNTDOWN. when we rmb it was like 12:02am already. we missed it. oh well.

on christmas itself, met up with FFR and went for a movie=) my treat to the movie and his treat to the dinner! and the dinner is not cheap can. LOLS. had jap food again and this time no no SAKAE. its SUN AND MOON! the place is superly nice. relax and chill.

the scallop in spicy "hokkien mee" taste-alike sauce. this is super super nice. HIGHLY recom.

and this is my mini-sashimi ice bowl. YES I LOVE RAW FISH! cos i am "COLD-BLOODED" (i get cold super easily)

kae. on the left is the "hour-glass" set. i dunno wats it called but i ate once with CHACHA and its was special=) and of cos yummilicious!

so the cost of the whole dinner was 70 plus i think. when i only paid 20 for the movies. hohohoho.
INDEED. IT WAS A VERY GOOD MERRY CHRISTMAS DINNER. =) LOLS.

the movie ended at 11 plus almost 12am and town was still super packed. OMG. i super hate it wen i have to squeezeeee with the smelly armpit pple. din get to take christmas lighting photos this year. so sadded =( CHACHA suppose to take with me one lor. shite her can always busy with her "eyecandy" and forget about me. *humph*

after movie i went home. DEN LBL and DL called and asked me to play mahjong. and we even prepare a logcake to celebrate WHILE playing mahjong. LOLS. wtf. i even WORE my christmas hairband there.

DEN DL suan me... "wah santa claus come and give marnie already!!!" nabeis...

who noes. i WON NEARLY 300!!! WOOHOO. marnie for my 32" LCD tv hahaaha.
ALL HAILS THE MAHJONG QUEEN!WOOWOW. =)

saturday.
NYDC heeren.

when cookie meets cream. loving it. =)

this is super cute can! if i can i will wan one in my room too. sweet. sure look den nice beside my NEW TV.=)

really cant wait tmr for the arrival of my teeeveee. =) WOPL is coming to pick me go get it. weee.

okay. WL is back from HONGKONG! gonna get my SISTA CHACHA and WL to hit it again. like we did. =)

NEW YEAR COUNTDOWN is coming near near.

FFR YOU OWE ME MY CHRISTMAS PRESSIE. AND I WANTS IT! *^^*

my babylovee
and yes your hug your kisses your smell...

it seems so like just yesterday when i last hold you near me. and i'm missing you already.